haiz, feel kinda sian... so blog again loh. if not ah, im too lazy to blog, then u wont get to hear from me la...
all the fun of this afternoon's shopping has kinda worn off la... (theoratically is yesterday, since it's past 12, but wad the heck la)... i feel a bit the depressed for no reason liddat...
mebbe is the school blues la, i dunno... that school is starting in like 2 wks... while im like... i feel this hols has passed really fast! well, mebbe cos that 2 wks spend on hainan (worthwhile though), 2wks on piaing for exam and nac (um... ok la, didnt REALLY wasted)... and 1+ wk for the comp itself, with all the alumni piaing at night too...
suddenly like all the blues coming ot me leh... haha i think the music i listening is affecting me too... all like sad slow love songs... haiz... no mood for poppy and upbeat music though... i suddenyl remember all the fun i had for this past mth and a half... and all my joy and pain... this yr's hols sure is fast... i wanna enjoy them all again... getting the feeling i had when i returned to sg from the hainan trip approx. 1 mth ago...
i cry each night, my tears for you... haha lyrics from the song i listening now... will you be back in my arms once again...
lets not digress la. so ya... a bit the down mood loh... then no mood for games, no mood for chat... haha i think its really the best time to blog loh... since i dont feel like sleeping yet... and stuff. no worries la, im fine... juz at this moment feeling liddat loh...
looking back to lotsa fun and joy ive enjoyed... the fun of hainan trip, the nice outings ive gone out on this hols, the fruits of my labour in grade 8 exam (i know its juz a merit, but its not that bad right?),
louis vuitton handbags the exp of int zr nac and the joy of 3rd in ensemble... all the closer bonds to my snrs instead of juz the current batch and committee... actually i should be sad la, the hols have been quite worthwhile i guess.
am i prepared for a whole new yr of challenges and stuff? and all the syf, tests, hmk, new topics coming up? i dunno. but im willing to try la... definitely i have to. actually im not really dreading the new yr la, juz wanna the hols to last longer... and longer... and longer...
also, heard my dad's not quite agreeable to me getting contacts la... a bit disappointed la, but i wont die without them. nevertheless, ill continue to persuade him. mebbe thats part of the sadness la. and abt private lessons in zr, parents also a bit reluctant for me to continue... i know i sometimes say bad stuff abt dxy and dreading lessons... but i feel... i think that it has become a hobby, and if i give up now... so what i have the grade 8 cert... i wont need it in future... what i need is a useful hobby that is helathy and i can derive fun and leisure out of it...
deng dai... zi wei jiu shi ai... another song le...
there are no stars tonight... and i cant see the moon too... i think my feelings now are kinda similar to that... black, dull, unpredictable... the sun will rise one day, but when will i get to see it? and that makeover thingy... suddenly feel it's kinda... san fen zhong re du... i mean, suddenly i dont feel so engrossed or committed to it le... true i wanna lose weight and ill do something abt it from tml onwards, but all the stuff i was planning to buy... feel that it's um... pointless loh. suddenly lost all the... passion, i will say... still ill try to go on la, it dfoes help and it matters... thats a fact...
looking out of the window again... see the street lamps... they will go off when the sun comes up... but what if they do b4 the sun rises? what can we do or use to guide our way around then? the world will be in pitch darkness... empty... juz bare. these are all my feelings at the moment... a bit down right... sighz...
la la la love song... another song im listening now...
well all in all, i think ill be ok again from tml onwards. so dont worry la, ill be right ok... think ill blog happy stuff tml... cya all... think juz wanna have some quiet time to myself and listen to music. wonder if ill be touched by any of them and have tears falling?
