quiz time! yay, ripped off kg's blog which is ripped of wj's blog. hopefully this brings a happier mood back to the blog. *im always kiddin myself*
Name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.
Ready, Start!
1. Simin
2. Wee Chern
3. Lim Yuan
4. Chun Kang
5. Wenjie
6. Peishan
7. Dun Jie
8. Yong Xian
9. Wensi
10. Samuel Ravi
11. Ryan
12. Aaron
13. Yuxiang
14. Samuel Tan
15. De Ren
16. Kwang Guan
17. Kai Xiong
18. Xuan Ping
19. Ronald
20. Kennard
21. Puay Hian
THE QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 14?` Became classmates this yr from jan loh. in a cool class called 06S6D. and was CO mates since sec 1. in tanbo somemore. and i was the tanbo sl! ok, musn't ego so early yet.
2. What would you do if you never met 6?` Hmm. not too sure. Our class has enough girls as it is le haha. Missing one girl will be like a great dip in % of girls. and she's a nice girl to talk to and stuff. though recently dont talk so much le... cos of certain reasons. heh.
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?` HMM. ERM. COUGH. WELLZZ. i dont think so... nono. pls dont. i dont wanna think about it. both are realy nice ppl, but i just dont think they will click.
4. Did you ever like 5?` er. first of all he's a guy, so if the like is THAT kind of like, then duh no. but as a fren, ya he's really nice and i suppose he's very blissful and happy now (actually i dont have to add this part in, but nvm lol).
5. Would 4 and 10 make a good couple?` ER. i highly doubt so lol. they are like both guys. and 4 has his target already isnt it? like so many la. heh heh. lolx. let's all pray that this will nv come true. (i meant the 4 and 10 making a couple)
6.Describe 8:` Although i wasnt exactly present when her nick was formulated, news spread fast. so i have only one word to say. NOOB lol. ok thats like a bit bad la, but guess i have no choice, cos it's like THE name for her =))
7. Do you think 13 is attractive?` Um... he's from gym and M.A.D, so i suppose that gives him an upper hand in terms of body figure. and he's like really smart and hardworking (hey i nerfed the word 'nerd'). and he's quite nice. so i guess he should have no problem finding a girl. must jiayous hor, dont give up on her (i also dont really need to say this out, but being the big mouth me... kiddin kiddin! i can keep secrets well de. sure. confirm. absolute.)
8. Tell me something about 7:` He is act cute guy that seems to be super mature and caring when facing 8. so he's like really sweet (*pukes*) and cute (*pukes again*). ok la, he's quite a nice person, one of my shifu in... certain probs. but i no need him anymore le. so *kicks him out of the door and laughs evily* juz kiddin.
9. Do you know any of 4's family?` No ideas. but i know he got 2 elder bros, so they are like a super masculine family haha.
10. What's 21's favorite idol?` No idea lehs. but i know he has idolised a certain girl in our class... so i take her as his fav idol =P
11. What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she liked you?` um it's like quite impossible, tyvm (thank you very much). he's a super nice guy and very kind person, but he's a guy. A GUY. so no thanks.
12. what language does 20 speak? um english and chinese loh. wad did u expect. Alienish? (rofl. im being reminded of 16's answer in his blog)
13. Who is 9 going out with?` currently no one i think. but i really hope she will be soon. with the guy she wants to go out with. with HIM. jiayous!
14. How old is 16 now?` 17 liao. he's a jan kid, together with weiye and 5's =) in his blog. spammed thruout all the posts this yr. okok, 6 then, if u are too lazy to go check it out.
15.When's the last time you talked to 12? i think on thursday, when he asked me to start our service learning next sat. omg, i suddenly sian diao le. not that i dont like s-l, but... ok, s-l can be a little little boring sometimes. oops.
16. What is 2's favorite band? not too sure. but wadeva band he likes, it should be a jap band. he's like this jpop fan. and wadeva band he likes, his bro will not like it. the reasons i shall not say. let's just say i had a good laugh at his bro's reaction to his taste in songs.
17. Would you ever date 10? Er no. even if he's my best friend, i dont think dating is the proper word. Period.
18. Would you ever date 12? No either. we are like good frens from s-l thats all haha. (am i having too many guys in the list? why cant i ever get a proper pair of guy and girl so i can tok more. or is this hinting something... *wink wink*... not.)
19. Is 15 single?` I... dont... think... so...right? ask him urself bahs.
20. What is 19's last name? omg. i guess it's fate that i must talk abt ur surname ronald. it's TSUI. cos he's from hk, thus the surname. and we always call his surname until like its 'water' in dialect. cool surname hor. tsui. tsui. tsui tsui tsui.
21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11?` Again. i really have too many guys on my list. um he's a real nice guy, and very frank with my flaws, so im thankful to him for that. but not relationship. um ya duh.
22. What school does 3 go to?` hcjc i think. she's my classmate, so if im in hcjc, she'll be too? (i leave it to u to say 'like duh')
23. Where does 17 live? toa payoh. am i supposed to elaborate anything abt it?
24. What's your favorite thing about 16?` he's this really really nice guy with his fair share of straightforwardness. and as i was just telling wenjie and wee chern on msn (we are attempting to discuss pw. but to no avail.), he has this way of making ppl laugh, yet not explicitly humourous. i wished i had that.
25. Have you seen number 1 naked?` *stunned diao* how ever did u know... like real. of cos not.
About You
1.Name: Kelvin Ong Jia Hao (shant reveal my nicknames)
2.Gender: Male
3.Primary school: Da Qiao Pri, then Rosyth School
4.Secondary School: The Chinese High School/ Hwa Chong Institution
5.Zodiac sign: Snake
6.Height: 180cm (i wanna be taller. haha. dont throw rotten eggs at me.)
Favourites:
7.Color: Orange and Purple (only cos i think they are special, dont think wai wai.)
8.Food: hmm. i dont really have any favourites i think. anything tasty to me lol.
9.Drinks: Justea Peach i guess. i spent the past 4 months to nurture my liking for it ok, drink everyday after my recess.
10.Numbers: not really sure. but ill give it a 16, only cos it's my index no. -.-
11.Anime characters: i dont really watch anime. so cant judge. pikachu?
12.Songs: countless. infinity. dont bother listing.
13.Movies: it's a lot a lot. ill just name a few offhand. cellular, i not stupid, school of rock etc..
14.Subject: hmm. i hate all subjects actually. cos they bring me unnecessary stress. (oh god, must i say PE?)
15.Day of the week: Saturdays. cos can wake up late AND sleep late. though now the latter does not differ regardless of the day.
16.Brand: hwachong. (like real, im not that patriotic yet)
17.Hairstyle: i dunno. something that i dont have yet apparently.
18.Look: of cos good-looking la.
19.Thinking of: =) (dont be mistaken wenjie. it just means secret.)
20.Listening to: Asylyn - Thats When I Love You (by courtesy of wensi, i like the song a lots)
21.Do you believe in Love: yes definitely.
22.Faith: i dunno. though i usually dont have faith in myself.
23.Yourself: fav yourself?
24.Ghosts: um... yes. *spooky music plays*
25.Angels: yes (ok, i believe in almost everything la) [angel flies by and switches off the spooky music] enough nighdreaming, on the the next part. my pw grp still waiting for me.
In The Last 24 Hours:
26.Worn jeans: um give it another 5 hrs, then yes. i wore jeans out yesterday.
27.Cleaned your room: nope. i dont have a room to myself to start with. ke lian hor.
28.Cried: umm. yes. when i was blogging and talking to wee chern last night at 3+am.
29.Met someone new: er... i guess so, went to easter service and talked to leon a bit more than i ever had. so i guess thats meeting someone new? though i know of his existence b4 la duh.
3o.Last person you went out with: if u mean pure friendship... then ryan, who ponned council camp yesterday to pull me to easter service haha.
31.Do you have a BF/GF: nope..
32.Do u admire any one: countless bah. everyone has something abt them that someone else admires. but somehow i dont see it on me.
33.Does someone admire you: could there ever be? then i think ill be feeling a lot better than now le.
34.Do you plan on having kids: yep. if i ever get married. dont think ill adopt.
35.How old you wanna be when you get married: around 30 i guess? not too young and not that old yet. i wont want a wife like 20 years younger. that'll be like 10. zomg.
36.How old you wanna be when you have your child: 30+ loh.
37.How many kids do you want: 2. 3 is fine too. both are quite alright. (ok, im saying 3 is cos without the 3, i wont be existent)
38.Would you have kids before marriage: definitely not if i can control it.
39.Have you found your other half: nope.
40.What do you want most in a relationship: something long-term thats for sure. one whereby both can be attracted to each other not purely by looks but character also, and be willing to accept the other party for wad he/she is, and be prepared to stay with someone like that for the rest of his/her life. also be willing to accept each other flaws, thats super impt.
41.Pink or Black: um. pink is like so unique lol. and cool and funky and nice. and striking and eye-catching and attention-attracting. ill choose black.
42.Kiss or hug: Hugzzzzz. they are warm and comfortable and "usable for all occasions". omg im making it sound very *coughcough*
43.Summer or Winter: Summer... cos it's bright and sunny and... summery. ok i just like summer.
44.Sunny or Rainy: Sunny days. (read my random post i blogged on a rainy day. i still want to be same, thank you very much (tyvm). but rainy days are cool only for the aftermath. the nice cool feel and smell of the rain. not the part abt wet Armegeddon striking of cos.)
45.Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate. esp dark chocolate. i looooove bitterness.
46.Hanging out or chill: both are equally nice to me. i guess have to see my mood loh. depending on the situation ill prefer to go out with my frens or just stone at home and and relax and reflect (eeks. this word gimme the shudders)
47.Music or TV: TV. tv. music brings enjoyment thru listening. tv brings enjoyment thru listening and watching. im a visual person i think lol. kill two birds with one stone.
48.Hamburger or Pizza: Pizza. it's like one hamburger and one pizza. of cos ill take the pizza. comes with 6 or 8 or 12 slices. *heh heh*
49.Smiling or Laughing: none. at least till my teeth gets a nicer. it sucks. but for now, mebbe laughing. cos there's movement, so ppl wont notice ur teeth so much -.-
5o.Sleeping or eating: both are cool. but looking at my fats, im compelled to choose sleeping.
chanel handbags which is such an enjoyment for lives that we lead. (oh ya, i slept from 4am to 1pm today and slept again from 4pm to 7pm. shiok) ok i just realised like both make u seem like pigs.
imagine 10 questions has been asked and answered. dunno why is this missing.
61.McDonald's or KFC: haha im a macdonaldised kid. cos i dont really go kfc often mahs.
62.Silver or Gold: if u mean the colour, ill go for silver. cos it's cool and sleek and... just wooh. but if u mean the metal... haha which is more striking leh.
63.Sunset or Sunrise: didnt have a chance to see sunsets although we live thru it like everyday. wad a pity. sunrise we attempted to watch it during last yrs countdown party but the sky was too cloudy. so couldnt see it. so i dunno =x
64.On phone or in person: in person in person in person. thats for sure. more sincereity and all. unless there's no choice la. that on phone on phone on phone. beats msn.
65.Diamonds or Pearls: diamonds. they are more cool and bright. mot imptly, they are transparent! (although i dunno wad abt they being transparent makes me like them)
66.Pacific or Roxy: um... pacific. cos i dont think ill be carrying roxy stuff around right xD
67.Band member or model: models are cool. cos they act cool haha. but if i could ever be one, i can only be a band member. so ill root for band member!
68.Sneakers or Boots: sneakers. they rox. full stop. sounds nice too. sneakers. repeat that 10 times.
69.Clubbing or Live Music: um.. clubbing i guess? agree with kg, it's sounds cool.
70.JLopez or Jennifer aniston: thats a tough decision. lets koup wenjie's answer. =)
71.What is the time now: 10.09 pm. (OMG i took a ****ing 1 hr 20 min to do this -.-)
72.What are u doing: blogging this quiz which i just got pissed abt due to the time i took to do it. and talking on msn with wee chern and wenjie. though im not really replying to the convo.
73.Who is the last person u saw nearby ur house: didnt have time to look out of my house today. spent most of it sleeping. so it'll have to be some guy living opposite my block watching tv still b4 i slept last night at 4am.
74.Who is the last person u sms: ryan. yesterday b4 i met him at newton mrt.
75.Who is the last person who sms u: um... stella.
76.How many times is ur profile being viewed: dun know dun care. i dunno if i want none to read or many to read actually. weirdo.
77.How many ex u had: none.
78.How is your day in school: there's no school today. so ill take it as thurs. um... ok loh. nth special. just that i overslept while on the way to comm serve and i overshot all the way to jurong east (i was on 66). thankfully i go wee chern house b4 if not i wont know how to go abt the interchange. so was like 20 min late for service. not that i care, the kids bullied me. i rather be as late as possible)
79.Were you late for school today: theres no school today, so i suppose i cant be late.
8o.Who are u chatting with now: wee chern and wenjie. think i said it a lot of times thru out this quiz le.
81.How old are u: 16. im the youngest in class! whee. at least the class wont be able to celebrate my bdae with me (dunno if should be sad or happy, looking at wad happened to the bdae boys/girls)
82.Last thing u drank: plain water loh. im not till the stage that i drink soft drinks all the time. though i look like heh. nvm.
83.Last thing u ate: rice + fish + veg + some weird fatty thing.
84.What u feel like saying to the one u hate now: @#$!@%!#@$#$!@#$%#@$%$%^$%^%^&^*^$$##@$#!@%@#$#$%$#%^#$%^$%^$%. make that 1000 times worse.
85.I like: dunno wad i like. um... lose weight, have nicer teeth, nicer hairstyle, look better, be able to do pullups, dont flunk 'A' levels, ok i dunno why im writing this. pretend u didnt read it. i think my brain overload le. so many qns! sian)
86.I love: everybody that loves me. (thats very true. so it stays, dunno is wj's or kg's)
87.Have u ever broke someone's heart: not sure. do i have the chance to? moreo f ppl breaking mine bah. that will be like countless.
88.This term, have u ever cried in school: um... yar. in term one. samuel ravi saw it. oops.
89.Had ur heart broken: ping piang. haha it's like the classic word for our class. i still rmb wee chern duno what it is until 1-2 wks ago. out of sync sia.
9o.Who is the person you now damn hate: dont think i have la.
91.Who is the person u want: =) secret.
92.The last person you kissed: er. i think i kissed my pillow by accident when i was sleeping face down. if person, none b4.
93.The last pests u killed: will people keep track of pests they kill? imagine. Files\Misc.\Murders\Pests\pestskilled.xls scroll to 384. a giant red ant at xx/xx/06 time: xx:xx pm.
94.The last word you said: bad. (from the phrase 'not bad' when i was watching the fann wong sand performance on chn 8 charity show)
95.How long u sleep last night: 9 hrs. shiok. does the 4pm to 7pm one count?
96.Who are talking to on msn: wee chern and wenjie (omg. how many times have i repeated this. they must be waiting like crazy.)
97.When is ur last outing day: Cant remember.
98.Song listening to now: check 20. heh heh. i found a loophole. ok thats was like
so dumb.
99.How are you feeling: um sad and depressed. not yet suicidal i guess.
100.Are you missing someone: =) =) =)
finally. took up sooooo much of my time. lol. but cool, at least i finished it. *sighs in relief*
why am i so weak. why am i so helpless. i just cant seem to get rid of the depression that seems to embed itself within me.
i just cant help but to collapse under stress. why is it such a big factor in my life. i know i can do it, but i dunno why i just fall facing stress. am i really that weak? or alternatively, this is a form of relief from something even worse?
i may just be talking nonsense and making no sense. i dunno. but i know that im metally exhausted and thinking is not in my dictionary. i feel that i have been through so much today. no it's not tests it's not hmk or anything to do with school. it's more of my ownself.
i dunno what i want out of my life. i wonder if i should live my life the way i am now. there are a lot of areas for improvement i know. but i wonder if i can commit myself to all these changes. and be able to work out something better in my life.
there's this chance now right in front of me that im supposedly able to do it. sounds too good to be true? i dunno. but it implicates a lot of other consequences which im not sure if i can handle and take it as a "sacrifice" to my choice. ironically, the chance should be removing me from my problems isnt it? so im like really stuck.
and tonight's conversation with wee chern has increased my stress level tremendously. i dunno why i take the things said and discussed in the conversation so hard? why do i so strongly believe in it? am i so domineering that i expect him to agree with me and i get agitated when he refuses absolutely to? maybe, u know, just maybe that might be true. then why am i such a person? why do i need to have people agreeing with me?
so i came out with this possible answer that might fit with my personality. am i having an inferiority complex that i can only confirm with my own views when there are people who do? is it that bad that even my thoughts have to be affirmed by others? i know i lack a sense of leadership and resonsibility by being the youngest, and that has led me to lose the self-esteem even only childs will have. im losing both aspects is it not?
this is just a very crappy post. im not thinking at the moment, my mind's a total blank. i just dunno why i have to take wee chern so seriously? why do i hate to work for nothing? like explain a whole lot to find out that he had been keep a neutral stand all along. is it such a big deal?
ill answer that, yes. i feel so. to me, neutral viewpoint is the most despicable ever. yes i do it all the time, i dont deny im despicable at times. but now when ppl gimme a "neutral", thats when i really feel the anger of it. if someone has negative views, even my whole lot of explanation will at least make minimal impact on his thoughts,
chanel handbags even at the very least. but to keep something neutral, can anymore be agreeably neutral or disagreeably neutral. no u cant. theres only one point in the whole "scale" of being neutral. and being at that point has caused me a total waste of time to have said anything, cos if u are neutral, no matter wad side is asserting its point, there cannot be any deflection in mindsets.
all the work for nothing. will anyone feel happy about it? especially doing it after a whole lot of thinking and pondering abt an impt issue that concerns one's life u know that?
i almost feel like giving up on beliving anything u know. it's just so hard to keep holding on to it when people just shoot u down easy, pushing u over as though u were a sheet of paper. and u just topple, so very easily. how hard is it to try to stand upright? why not u try to keep a sheet of A4 paper upright/standing.
vulnerability is the question. i derive strength from my inner self and from my close ones. now the strength i receive from myself is getting weaker and weaker, i no longer seem to be able to draw energy from within. and my second source is totally lacking. family ya, it's there all the time. but friends.
im not nagging or wad u know. but this is the upteempth time im bringing this up. friendship means a lot to me cos it's just the way im made to be. but the qualities ive been bestowed upon to seek this strength restricts me from doing so totally. i tried hard, and i mean a lot harder than what i used to be, but it just seems to be an uphill task. why cant i just find close friends this year? was it really a wrong decision to decide to mix around with everyone and be more all-rounded and sticking to a particular group all the time? now i feel that im getting nowhere. theres no small group for me to lean upon, and i still havent reached the stage where i can be frens with everyone, for the very fact im not made to be so i guess.
i dont think anyone have that deep a sense of friendship as me. as im typing this last part, tears are falling again. stop calling me weak. why not think it in a different way and say, this guy values friendship a lot and needs it. give it to him. i beg of u, cant u all just try. i tried u know, i really did. when am i going to see results of my labour at all?
am i going to do work for nothing again?
it's pouring heavily. really heavily. i can almost feel the impact of the raindrops hitting the ground, tiny but hard. the continuous streams of water gushing down from the heavens form a misty sight. it is as though a veil of mist has covered my eyes, preventing me from seeing the far distance clearly. it also signifies that i am kept at home, as the heavy rain restricts my mind from wanting to head out and absorb the impact of the little droplets of water.
i seek for the end of this rain, not only to be able to break free from the invisible chains that bind me at home, but also be able to play mini-detective and go about observing the damage of the rain. how puddles appear, how water trickles down roofs and how the sun fights to be able to resurface once more out of the dark clouds.
rain, rain, go away. this is a familiar rhyme we hear in kindergarden. how i wish all kids own the power of what the rhyme wants. not far off in the distance i seem to hear the car alarm. ringing and ringing non-stop. i wonder when it is going to stop. and people scurrying on the pavement trying to get to the shelter of their own homes. i can imagine their feet on the pavement, making splashing and squishing sounds.
there, a flash of lightning and a clap of thunder. many parents will be saying, children do not go outside and play. it is dangerous. stay at home and do your homework. play when the rain has stopped. a hoax that many will use, is it not? for me,
replica watches i wonder if i will ever be able to break free from the charm of such hoaxes and finally have a mind of my own? must i be led and carried about, just absorbing whatever i am told to? take in take in take in. that is all that is happening in my life? then why not become a puppet. at least puppets do not have to endure all these restrictions. they will simply follow instructions and that will be their sole purpose in life. do i want to be like that?
the rain is getting heavier and heavier. i can barely see what is in the distance. it is just a blur of images. what i can see clearly is just the streaks of water falling and falling, to the depths of the abyss. getting soaked by the soil, flowing to the nearby drains, finally finding their resting place after they have done enough damage and inconvinience to lives.
but as what wise men say, there is always a good and a bad side to everything. while many are stuck with any comfort they can find in their homes, many are in the open still trying to find a shelter and place to escape before the rain strikes them so hard and so much that they fall, face-down on the ground, lifeless. they shall never more again. but the plants are enjoying this rain, tremendously. with the backdrop of dark clouds and waterfalls of rain, their green stands out bright and clear, as though they are glowing in appreciation and enjoying the sight. water from the heavens, they will say, and it shall nourish our souls and let us be alive while the rain lasts!
pitter patter. splish splash. gush. whoosh. roar. i can think of the high and rushing tides not far off from anywhere i can be on this island, as we are all surrounded by waters. friends from above has arrived, the seas shall sing. let us all welcome them in dance and make marry, the oceans shall sway. the waves grow bigger and bigger, awaiting the rain to arrive. and they finally did. welcome welcome, the seas and oceans cry as they sing and dance even more vigourously, delighted with their arrival.
will the rain ever stop? the answer, many will give me, is of course. but at this particular moment im looking at it, the possibility of it ever stopping is simply so little, as though it will never ever stop. rain shall reign the world, and sunlight will step down form its throne. the long invasion of rain into sunlight's territory, Earth, has finally succeeded. in the future years to come, rain shall plague the world, and defeated sunlight shall shine its influences somewhere else. for now, he had lost Earth to rain.
what can the people do? nothing at all. dark clouds will be what they pray for, and rain will be what they worship. they will all become slaves and suffer the raindrops on their backs, each one like a sharp spear piercing into their skins. they shall all catch colds and sneeze non-stop, being plagued by the evil ruler of rain. even plants will overnourish to a state where they themselves will get washed by the rain off the ground, their roots flailing as they move along with the current, getting washed to neverland, never to be existent on Earth again.
destruction beholds. and Earth shall be facing the worst crisis ever yet. people will suffer. lives will be lost. life will never be the same again. when will anyone see the first glimmer of sunlight? when will anyone be able to break free from the rule of rain? we all want sunlight. we all need sunlight. but we will never have it. the only thing we can do is to defy rain and pray for sunlight. but rain will punish us when he finds out, and we shall all sink into a worse state of rain then ever. if the raindrops were painful, the ones now will be unbearable. Earth will drown in its own rain. what a tragedy. will any humans then be able to survive? without oxygen in other planets, can human form and earth forms still prevail in the solar system? or shall we all perish and become extinct? i do not want to perish. i still want to live and fill my mind with anything i can find. i do not want to die so young. there are still many things i have not seen yet.
a wet Armeggedon has struck.
everything that happened in the past years will be washed down history by the rain. no one shall remember Earth ever existed. or humans ever existed. or anything humans have done at all. who is going to know what i ate for lunch just now. who is to know that i want to go out and i am so bored at home? and who is to know that i feel so restrained at home? suddenly i just want to escape from this stuffy house, rather getting struck by the rain than staying at home and going towards insanity as i simply look at the computer screen with nothing to do at all.
but of course, it will be real insanity if i actually go out now.
and the rain hasnt stopped after so much crapping. ok im going to read my book le. too sian to do homework and how to go out with this kind of rain. no one wants to go out with me anyway.