Monday, July 31, 2006
i really dunno wad to do liao la. this wkend has been quite screwed up. as in... in the academic sense.
im like happily packed with the wkend with fri qing gong yan and sun cip, helping with jaime and weiguang's SPCA S-L project. i mean that's still ok. wait this is not my main point. talk abt that when i actually have time...
anyway i came back and happily dozed off on my bed without eating dinner. woke up at 11pm. TOTALLY GG. then rushed to do my EoM.
after that i really seriously dilligently went to look for sources, i seriously did. asme, sbf, enterprise one, spring (it's down though), articles, other pw mates sources, interviews, really everything liao la. i even came upon this worker's party essay on how pap is doing a fine job on the economy BUT... ya u get the idea. even smu articles on how the world is switching to knowledge-based and how consultants are the hot favs now. even... even... ibm and hp offering to aid smes and providing solutions (i didnt even know they did that la. to me they are just IT product companies. period.)
after looking at almost everything i can find possible. it was already 3am and i was really desperate. as in like, "come on, u continue finding, it's just gonna clog up ur brain (ya im still thinking of the "power to the people" slogan by worker's party)." so i seriously considered a lot of sources. research papers in wee chern's sources, archived interview with Spirit of Enterprise nominee in wenjie's sources, and not to mention all the websites that provides aid la. but i seriously need an article or interview to work with, if not i really dont have a flow. evaluating a website is hell. like so much things to evaluate, true. but u cannot get it flowing and making sense. just one whole bunch of analysis. got wad use.
then i did something i feel really bad. now after i completed it, (it really crappy work, i kept convincing myself if i did a gd job, they will understand why i desperately need this source as my main source for EoM.) im not so sure. I went to take wenjie's main source as my main source. ok i know this is like really bad, he most prob would have done his EoM on it already (like duh. who else will be striving to finish it like now, except for me.). but i really looked thru so many sources,
chanel handbags they just dont fit the bill, either in terms of format or content. so it's either interviews and articles and reseach papers that do not let me evaluate wad i want on services provided for the smes, or loads of relevant websites which i cant exactly evaluate, only taking some info from.
except that interview. it does not totally fit the bill (hardly any sources do). but that whole chunk on SBF is so very useful to me lahhhs. with all the mentioning abt costs and fees, it really forms the crux of my EoM on evaluating services provided for SMEs. it's almost the best source i can find le... and as i said although it's really not a gd job, i did wad i could. as in... u must take into account i have school de loh. and sleeping from 7 to 11 isnt really anything great or wad. i still got chem spa tml. totally havent read.
actually i dunno why am i posting this whole thing. most of u wont even understand anyway. like i didnt before our pw grp did this proj. i guess i just wanna reason with myself this is the only thing i could do. either this source, or i wont be able to produce any EoM at all, not to mention even tml (ok it's actually today le, it's like 5+ la. mind u, not the past 12 before 12 thing. it doesnt really exist in singaporean students' lives). but i really dunno how my pw mates will react la, especially wenjie.
i dont want him to be pissed at me, and i really dont want him to redo or anything. but i cannot emphasise enough that the area im doing is quite well established in the interview, and there are really not many sources that i can analyse and evaluate (article, interview). seriously, info sites cant really be evaluated. i need some opinions and views, which only articles and interviews can provide.
so im kinda stuck now. for me is this or die. unless some miracle happens and an article pops out in today's newspaper regarding this or something. but wenjie most prob done is EoM on this le, so i also dunno la. ARGH, im very stressed now. dunno wad to do la. heck for an hour or so. must study chem spa or fail (ok thats a very scary thought). face the music 2 hrs later when i go school.
did i mention i havent slept since 11? (ok this is like quite a duh fact. nvm.)
voodoo-ed and killed at 5:13 AM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
wah this wk has been quite... i dunno how to describe.
i suppose there are a number of "highlights" this wk. so updating a bit...
first of all, i lost my phone!! lost it on... thu morning. was still using it in the morning in my room b4 i changed into my uniform, then found it lost immediately after i got off my dad's car on the overhead bridge. super sadddz la. i realised how hard it is to have life without a phone. u feel super insecure. anyway, frantically searched my bag, called my mum to search my bedside, called my dad to search my car. all cannot find. by yesterday i was on the verge on going to SPEND MY OWN MONEY to get a new phone, or to use the super dooper lousy nokia black and white screen phone all the way till next jan when contract expires and i can buy a new phone at a discount. i was sadded.
then today morning. like hey presto or dunno wad la, my dad found the phone in his car!! YAY! so happy. so went to charge it and brought it out to gai gai with wensi, wee chern, peishan, kwang guan and wenjie. tok abt that later.
all in all, 3 "major events" happened this wk. but not really in the mood to elaborate, so just roughly say.
THURSDAY
the evening of the day i lost my phone, it was half day cos of judo and track and field finals doing well (my lessons end at 1pm on thurs, and half day is till 12. thx la. really got use.) so i went home and slack and slept. woke up to prepare and chiong to city hall mrt station. the rest have already met at abt 3+ and watched pirates 2 liao. im holding it back to watch with sam when he's free loh. now busy with AYLS i guess. with all the schools all over Asia. first time i felt life is insecure without a phone. couldnt find them without a phone la. thought they abandoned me lol.
so STJ orginally was at suntec marche. but suddenly got problem, standard chartered have already booked the place. so in the discuss and stone, till near 7 when the movie watching ppl were done, we all went to yuki yaki at marina square. haha first time eating this kind of buffet. got hotplate and a pot of soup of ur choice, then meng get raw food to bbq and cook urself. then eat!! kai dong lo! haha. spammed meat, soupy stuff, lots of sushi. oh ya... the calamansi drink quite nice. i drank like 4.5 cups of it. haha also meng a lot of wafers and love letters. esp the choc one la. choc + strawberry i think i ate minimum 20. lol greedy pig sia. but i didnt really feel like eating the main course, cos spammed a lot of sushi at the start, then full le lol. consequences of eating too fast.
the wasabi sushi i ate from the neighbouring table: wensi, cheejia, yushan, weechern, wenjie, peishan. was super qiang ok. i eat, chew chew, still fine, chew chew somemore, then gg liao. WHOOOOOSH. the whole qiang feeling came and i was like gasping for air lol. shuang dao! my table had: dunjie yongxian chunkang limyuan kevin and me. other 2 tables of jnrs were: deren max pengsing sam weichung kwangguan, and wensheu puayhian ruiyuan zhiyong. 22 out of 26 ppl went la. thats really a nice class outing =)). thanks seniors for that wonderful dinner and time for us to get together!
after dinner, i know that one grp of guys went to buy some vodka to try lol. didnt really know wad happened to them. they just said after drinking feel very tired haha. anyway me limyuan and chunkang went off ourselves. we didnt feel so much like going back yet, so went to millenia walk and see see chunkang's music school. coincedentally, it was the one that a small grp of us went to for ben and jerry's icecream that time dunjie play the piano that big shop in millenia walk! haha so qiao. anyway had a lame time with the escalator, trying to climb up an escalator moving down. guess we were feeling really stupid. but it's gd exercise.
then we spent some time outside a figurine shop with lots of war figurines. limyuan and chunkang had a fun time there. i was just stoning abt. but there was this cute set of stuff with all the mini mess tins and salt and pepper and water bottles. all mini size one haha.
after that, on the way back to mrt at suntec, we passed by swensens and we got this stupid urge to eat icecream lol! so in the end we spent money to buy a tub of double cream and cookies. lol. damn dumb la. i think we were feeling high that night. after that went to see the fish on display until the lights off la. time for fishie to sleep le. also got to know a bit more abt corals thx to chunkang haha. we couldnt finish the icecream, so limyuan brought it home lol. she also took back our spoons and gave it a makeover! haha so cute. write own names on the spoons. personalised de hor. zai right lol.
FRIDAY
friday, only one major event, which is ZPoP Concert at Indoor Stadium!! WOOHOO! thx yuxiang for giving me tickets. had a lot of fun. anyway that later.
wah today is that kind of spamming busy days again. zoom here zoom there la. totally packed. no wonder i slept so soundly that night after the concert from abt 1am to 1pm sat afternoon >.< i think u'll understand why after this. 8am: um lssons begin. nth unusual. just a suuuuuper long time of lessons la, 8 to 12 straight. thx can. lousily planned timetable. have to live with it for 6 more wks. 1pm: pw lessons start. after some small talk abt the EoM, we asked for permission to interview the bookshop auntie. lol this has been postponed from wed to thu to today la lol. nvm at least we did it. so interview began, got to learn more stuff abt SMEs and some risks they consider and reasons why they utilise and not utilise some services that are provided for them. shant elaborate, thats in our pw. anyway she's quite a nice person to chat with, though quite a lot of stuff is irrelevant. nevertheless, got to know a bit more abt starting business and the true colours behind popular muahaha. haha no la, just i only that day then know that popular branches are totally not theirs, they are just a franchaise. so cheapskate lol. k nvm. shant make personal remarks. 2pm: had to rush off towards the end of interview for CO performance for J2. sian la, the rest got to zao early and dont have gp from 2-3.30 cos ms cheong was not around. anyway, just took instrument, went to audi, prepared, and played. although still quite bad, it was better than wed playing to J1s la. after all it's our first perfomance >.< though met yingying on the bus later and she gave quite bad comments. sighs. our CO must buck up for MAF performance wo. 3.15pm: limyuan called sam to look for me and asked to go her house for the remaining icecream! yumyum sia. haha. got my own spoon waiting for me somemore. so i went over. chunkang was playing pool with some others at bukit timah plaza, so went to fetch him also. wah super warm la, had to climb the overhead bridge like 3 times. once to fetch him, once to go back, once to go school. anyway, quickly devoured the icecream cos it was melting and we were all super hot. then didnt feel like going cca so soon,
louis vuitton handbags we played ping pong in the basement of limyuan's house for a while. kenna thrashed la. my ping pong cmi de. wensi or yushan jiu ming ah! hahas. ck ownage sia. 4.15pm: went back to school for interact installation. my igroup was supposed to help with decoration, but i didnt really receive any news... so just dao lol. anyway everything was done when chun kang and i went there. limyuan went for harmoc. so just sit at the back and attend the installation. quite a heart warming ceremony la... with small speeches, gift exchanging of 21st exco and 22nd exco, slideshows. there was also food at the end of the thing. kouped some cos will not have time for dinner. had sandwiches, meesiam, siew mai, meatballs, pizza, crystal prawn balls, and drinks of green tea and guava fruit punch. heh heh chun kang envy anot. cos he had to go OAC after that. 6pm: chiong home to bathe and changed. 6.30pm: chiong out of the house. had to meet weiqin, chunkang, weiyi and yongshun ( sorry dunno the spelling) at jallang mrt at 7.30pm. confirm late liao. 7.45pm: indeed i was late. then began our loooooong walk from mrt to indoor stadium. super long la. think we walked for like 20-25 min. and we arent exactly strolling. it's really quite far from mrt. lots of ulu areas also haha. btw saw chee yang at mrt going for zpop also. 8.15pm: reached, found our seats and it was show time! first up was liang jing ru. i cant really rmb the song sequence, but roughly she sang: yan wei die, yi dui yi, yong qi, ke xi bu shi ni, fen shou kuai le etc. then zhang xin zhe sang older songs like guo huo, bu yao dui ta shuo, cong kai shi dao xian zai (winter sonata theme) and some song with wu si kai one. harlem came up and they sang ai zhuan dong, a duet they have. i wasnt expecting it la. pleasant surprise. as in i know both of them performing for zpop and i know the song, but it just didnt occur to me they will have this song item hehe. harlem then continued with qing fei de yi, jie bu diao (new song), chun ni. lastly it was jolin with wan mei, tian xin quan, ma de li bu si yi, wu niang, jia zhuang (mainly new songs la) they also had an encore each, with ning xia, (i keep forgetting the jeff zhang songs), re qing de sha mo and i dunno the jolin song >.< it was really enjoyable. got to see the 4 stars perform live is really nice, although we were not very close la, but at least we got to see them quite a lot cos we were sitting front stage. even though is 4 sided stage, could tell our side was the main side. lol. lucky sia. =)) the 4 stars also super zai. it's a really nice concert, also my first time watching a concert in indoor stadium la. hao kan! 11.45pm: after the concert and walking back and taking mrt to clementi, i plopped myself on the seat at the clementi mrt stop waiting for my bus. after a long time, then i realised. it's never gonna come. GG K THANKS BYE la. last bus was at 11.25pm >.< sian. thankfully 154 still in operation, took it to opp kap stop on clementi road b4 it turned to dunearn road, then walked to shell station stop. thankfully still got some buses la!! i was abt prepared to walk home liaozz >.< so can anyone tell me, will i feel tired after a day like this. it's no wonder i slept for 12 hrs la.
SUNDAY
this post a bit the long. i still got phy tut to do and pw resources to read. gg.
yesterday took a suuuuuuuuuuuuuper long time tryng to persuade ppl to go kbox to pei wo VENT FRUSTRATION after my block test results. shant say it here, it's really unglamorous >.< gg liao le. once my parents see the results i dont think can ever go out >.< finally, peishan wensi and wee chern went with me to go kbox. this was also the gai gai i was talknig abt. honoured ma? first time my phone get back, then go out with u all le! lol. thats so lame. anyway, kbox is suuuuuper ex now. sian. dunno if can go more times in future. used to be able to pay at the least $6.50, now is like $11 la. +dunno how many % can. abt 80 liddat la. even though the food is better, it's still ex, period. had a lot of fun i suppose, most imptly being able to release my frustration with all the screaming lol. shuang ah! i think it's a lot more enjoyable to go kbox now cos have girls, then can take a break from all the wang lee hom, david tao, jj lin, jay zhou etc, and listen to some girl songs la. the most fun part is all the duets. ji nice! =)) abt 1 kwang guan came and abt 2+ wee chern had to go. wenjie also came cine cos need to xchange pw resources with me, but he didnt come up, so just ate BK himself. kg only ordered a drink cos +lunch is super ex (as i said, 11 bucks), so he also went down to eat. so me wensi and peishan sang super long la lol. the person also very nice haha, it was the same one who tried to solve our problem last time when we ordered 4 ppl's share but only wensi and me were there. i think i broke my own record of staying the longest for kLUNCH. abt 4.20pm la. it's really long, overshoot by 2hr 20 min. rofl. so now left with 5 of us, me, wensi, peishan, wenjie and kwangguan. so we went to the cheap but lag lan at somerset there and played 2 rounds of dota. 1st round i was owning but 2nd i was getting owned >.< guess it balances out. i think i can ONLY use lighting rev. period. i totally suck at the rest. even lina >.< zibei diao.
wah time passes really fast. and our 2 games took quite long per game, abt 1 hr+. by the time our 2nd game ended it was abt 7.30pm. o.O
so in the end might as well go for dinner at BK (haha wenjie). thankfully they got coupon la, i was totally broke diao by then. after dinner stayed for a while and wensi exhibited her gachapon collection. her bag like gachapon machine liddat lol. so many capsules! and so many types, got toys, chains, clips, and theres this hello kitty luck turning thing which works in a similar way to the toto machine (lol, bad link of analogy lol. hello kitty + toto = ??!! but it really works the same way haha) then we went home le..
had a really fun day. time to collect my feelings (lol direction translation), and get on with term 3. siannnnnn. still got phy tut and pw resources. and im feeling sleepy liao. GG.
p.s. totally broke can. last wk 2 days spend 20 bucks. today 1 day did it all...
$12 (kbox) + $3.60 (LAN) + $4.10 (BK) = $19.70 and i wanted to top up my ezlink card cos of excessive mrt usage this wk. oh did i mention i brought only 20 bucks out today?
voodoo-ed and killed at 9:21 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
do i have to say it again. well just for one last time. man are juuuuust so bad at prioritising. it's tue. means the wk barely begun. means i still got loads of tuts hounding me for the rest of the wk b4 salvation on fri 15:30 +/- 10 min due to lag time. oops i just revealed im a phy student. *oh great. im now reminded of my very well screwed phy
A LEVEL SPA. omgggbbq.*
anyway my point being, with so much to do, im like actually slacking here and not doing any work.
chanel handbags (ruiyuan's so going to kill me tml if i dont get started on the chem G2 now) efficiency my boy. it's looooow like anything.
anyway just a last point to state. flo0rball is funx. although it kinda maplelises ppl. with that sickle like stick, akin to arc staff or some warrior polearm/spear. and the way we play it, esp with one hand... as quoted by sam, "power strike dao."
tml will be playing racial harmony day song. *rolls eyes, trying to hit 180 degrees.* how great manz.
ok... off i go to attempt to do work. (most prob ill sleep) anyway, forgot to update. it's like "whee! physics i love U!" gg thanks k bye. it's like super gone case dao. remedial lessons coming my way. i really need it manz. glad that U could accompany me on my phy journey.
speaks to myself (im eccentric): cheer up alright? i know u can do a bit better for the next SPA de. u also can do better for phy promos de. u are not screwed la. um well... at least not THAT screwed.
yeah right.
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:23 PM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
wkend update:
this wkend. both days go out. spent $20 purely on food. OK LA THANKS. so much for dieting... okok im going to start... sometime soon lol. this doesnt sound right. me, dieting. although i need to i know. hey u dont have to rub that in!
Saturday
morning went for sl as usual at j8. as usual it's just me and aaron. sometimes i wonder if this grp comprises only the 2 of us. but this wk they got valid reason i think. kennard got LEAPs and yuxiang got competition. anyway, aaron and i finally got down to business and made this super rough plan of wad our sl projet which stretches over 2 yrs will do. basically it's just 2 major events la. shant elaborate, it's top secret. rofl.
after lunch at yoshinoya (
$5.95), we went to breadtalk to buy the $1 bread. spent
$2. breadtalk now selling all the bread at $1 cos of 6th yr anniversary. if u are reading this and wanting to buy, sorry too bad, today last day with offer le. but then again, if u didnt know abt this before reading my blog, check if u are living on this planet known as Earth. Or somehow planet Kalikampong and Earth crossed paths in space?
along the way on the bus stop waiting for 156 to ruiyuan's house, bought mentos mint(
$0.70). then went ruiyuan house for pw meeting.
wah his house quite secluded, must walk a distance from the bus stop to reach. if u turn wrongly then gg liao. u will be lost in this labyrinth of...um houses. anyway i found it with little difficulty (heh heh, pro anot). wah his house very nice. big and comfy also. *envious envious*. tokked abt intervewing and stuff la.
after the meeting went to the bus stop. wenjie and wee chern also pei wo took bus at the bus stop instead of kovan mrt where they came. then took 156 to alight at coro (it doesnt go my house). "naturally" going inside, chiong into ntuc and str8 to edo sushi and bought california maki (
$1.30).
then went home to watch rerun of sg idol. *side track: root for mathilda!*
Sunday
morning woke up quite early and stone in front of comp doing nth much. just play dumb games with trial version, like flo's diner dash, cake mania, mcf (mystery case files) huntsville, fish tycoon, mystic inn etcetc. nth to do mahs. maple is getting so sian when ppl dont play le. one person grinding alone. SUPER SIAN DIAO. come back to maple leh... ppl!!
anyway wanted to cut hair but cos had to meet wee chern at 1 to buy glue so no choice nv cut loh. hopefully spot check will go fine... >.< it's nt that long la... hor. met and went to tiong bahru plaza to buy super glue. wah the popular hard to find dao. we were like blocking a lot of ppl's way la, meng stopping in our tracks periodically to go, "why here no popular de?" after we found it then stone inside there for a while,
chanel handbags wee chern reading the bible (something liddat la, it was the only word i caught) and I was intrigued by the guinness world of record. quite cool dao, so many interesting things. "normal" ones include tallest woman (2.35m), heaviest man (484kg), most no. of big mac (forgot how many, i just know daily basis for 30+ years). "interesting" ones include, iron eating man, 99.9% body area tattooed man, solving a rubik cube in 14s, BLINDEDFOLDED (i dunno how he does it) in 3+ min. as for the "abnormal" ones... lets just call it an understatement. =)) went to food court after that and bought jap chicken karaage set (
$4), while wee chern and deren (who came later) ate carrot cake. then chun kang came and we went to his house for egg drop. nth really interesting happened, just that i improved on my bubblegum bubble blowing skills la! heyhey, the first time i learn to blow bubble is like 2 wks ago after econs block test at kap taught by dj yx wensi and yushan lahs. so im a noob still ok! so not bad results le! lol.
after we were abt done for the day (still quite far from completion), saw ck play some rome total war. then we realised that we actually have been doing the thing for like 4 hours la. without realising. p.s. my fingers still got dried glue on them la. trying to peel them off >.< then pack up, and went for dinner at bk in tiong bahru plaza (
$6). after that ck went back and deren and i went to breadtalk to buy last day promotion $1 bread. since i only brought $10 out today, had to use my old
$2 note to buy 2 bread. SAD DIAOZZ.
after that, then just went back le loh.
Extras
my dad went for some dinner yesterday with my mum and they won a table lucky draw. now we got this new addition to our family. this thing called robomop. basically u charge it up, then it will just automatically move about the house and clean up the hair and dust with the magiclean kind of paper it drags along. it's like super cool la! (though i doubt it's usefulness) it's just like this automated toy car then just randomly moves abt the place, pausing and halting as and when it wants to backtrack. even when it hits something, it will just move backwards and turn in another direction to clean. so interesting la! who wanna see? come my house! bring $1, cos im like charging for a 10 min view of it! lol juz kiddin. i mean kiddin only abt the last part. it's really "cute" >.< if u can use that to describe a... mop?!?! tonight i finished the maths evaluation thingy and wanted to post it on ivle. after i uploaded it, by some weird reason, my file description read "De Ren's Reflections/Evaluation". i was like "o.O wadde?". so totally unexpected kinda thing. ironically or smth, i just saw him less than 2 hrs ago la. wad a weird ivle. anyway i juast changed the file name and the thing disappeared. i suspect deren used the same file name as me "Evaluation". ppl who havent done or uploaded, go try la! see if u get deren kouping ur credit lol. just kiddin deren! lastly, $5.95 + $2 + $0.70 + $1.30 + $4 + $6 + $2 = $21.95 for the wkend. gg on my
money.
$5.95 + $2 + $0.70 + $1.30 + $4 + $6 + $2 = $21.95 all on food.
gg on my tummy!
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:23 PM
Friday, July 14, 2006
anyway, i feel better after ranting that off. so pls ignore it. sorry for ppl who are offended by it, especially my pw grp. if they read it la. it's just for my own mood alleviation, so seriously. dao that post. my grp members are gd at daoing anyway.
*to myself* cheer up! cheer up!
thats all.
voodoo-ed and killed at 8:11 PM
i think it's easier to keep quiet than to snap at ppl. today is really not a gd day. guess i just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. but most probably is due to some kind of prolonged unhappiness welling within me.
emotions pile up into 2 mannners: either u flare up like a volcano or u break down like a torrent. for the past few months the latter had been my major way of releasing stress. but this time round, it's that moment when everything just glares at u, like everything deserves some snapping at. i dunno la, just irritated.
everything has an initiation event to lead to the whole stream of emotions thereafter. it's like this building up day after day until one day when something small just sparks off the whole well full of emotions. well last night did. and im in a super bad mood today.
i mean. it's ok if u all dont want to meet up. im a grp member. everyone is equal in status, so u all dont have to exactly listen to wad i say. im not even the grp leader. im just some slacker in ur minds i guess, that seems to be busy with a whole load of stuff and dont care abt pw. if meeting up tml is such a torture, we can very well cancel it.
louis vuitton handbags all dont have to keep with my working style, just that ill probably be less effective behind the comp online loh. so dont blame me for it. u also cant expect everyone to be gd at wad u do. it's fair isnt it? we are just born to be different. so if everyone is very unhappy with meeting up tml, let's all work behind the computer bah. im ok with it de. 2pm on msn? or anything?
if ppl can bother to go out for activties, i dont see why meeting for pw is so torturous. im not even saying we meet every sat. it's just for one day for an important stage in our pw. is it that hard to ask for? if it is, we can all just do our WRs at home and submit individually loh. where did i hear from that pw is grp work?
ya ya, i know im bitching. i just dunno where else to say all these. keep it within me? thats possible. just perhaps ill die.
okok im sorry alright? just pretend u didnt read this. it's just a madman screaming lots of nonsense in his own personal online space (although he didnt buy it). so everyone after reading this post, just get on with life and have fun with ur pw (individual).
there i go again.
voodoo-ed and killed at 7:49 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
btw just realised ck's thoughtful side (lol this sounds so gay). although he seems to dao the whole issue. but a song he intro me just kinda says it all. abt how he actually takes notice.
so u 2. can u pls appreciate efforts. dao's the in thing or smth? anyway this song although it doesnt EXACTLY spell out the issue,
replica watches it's really similar and linked. so kudos to ck for this song. and it's really nice too.
sorry my IT skills kinda suck. so i dunno how to upload songs. can someone tell me a host who can host songs that i upload? anyway, just have a look at the lyrics.
Westlife - Obvious
Yeah, ooooh...
We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby
You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me (Bryan echo: just like me)
But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no
And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone
I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...
You are my very first thought in the morning
And my last at nightfall
You are the love that came without warning
I need you, I want you to know
I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see
But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:05 PM
crapppz. bitching time returns. it must be this thing abt school. when lack of sleep and loads of stuff starts piling up on u, u'll just seem to be very bad-tempered of sorts. occasionally hanging out with frens help, but thats mebbe like every thurs or something.
things in school are getting to me nowadays. perhaps even like biting. first comes the results. i dunno wad problem there is, but i havent even managed to see anything abt chem blocks. if she dares to not give back anything tml, i may just lose my patience and flare up.
ok cool down cool down.
phy is screwed up. i mean i knew that long ago b4 i even took the paper, or at least after i took the paper. but it's just i thot my mcq could save me. but look at that very nice failure grade for my mcq. i really do not want to see my paper 2. chem leh... i just feel like dying. there's just this sense of frustration. everyone (including me) use to find chem quite manageable, and did quite ok for it (except those under mok). but then, now my fav subj and supposedly best sunj in sec school is failing me like crazy and i really dunno how to deal with it.
today's arenes. i totally didnt understand a thing abt it right from the time it started. just blindly copy, even with a chance of copying wrongly. then econs which is my current best subj is getting harder and harder. phy as usual is cmi. so is maths with differentiation coming up. not that i wanna tok abt academic stuff, but i really cant imagine my results for blocks. then these ppl keeping stressing u out with all those "u got 10 wks left". might as well say it blatantly, "10 wks b4 u need to start revsion from the first topic again, for repeating j1 next yr".
non-academically, i had this spillover struggle with ccas after my decision made in the june holidays. which is quitting guitar. it's like a sad thing for me, but i gotta do it. cos joining 2 musical ccas will not get me anywhere in a sense, cos i can only take part in 1 syf. and i so dont want to be a stagnant member of a cca im not that committed to. it's like u learn the syf guitar songs and be this so called member of it. then u dont contribute back at all thru the simplest means of syf. and i really dont want to go only for 1 time per wk. it's horrible for attendance. like maximum 50% that kind of thing. wads the pt if it clashes with CO on wed. wad if i end up not able to get 80% for both ccas. im already screwing up my cca attendance for CO and interact le.
then theres this trouble abt telling my parents. after all i bought my guitar le. then if i say i quit, they'll go "san fen zhong re du" that kinda thing. and i cant be bothered to explain the "plight", cos it's my decision. it's not that im forced to quit or wad. i also dont wanna reveal to them in fear that they think this guiar will go to waste. but then again, i dunno if i can spare time for guitar lessons. then parents also will have to pay... i dunno la! *stressed*
also theres the thing abt 2 frens i have. i dont wanna elaborate. that'll only get me worked up. dao's the keyword.
then pw. it's been causing me a lot of sleep this wk. i dunno la. mebbe i slack too much in the hols. suddenly everything just rushes to u. like excessive pw on ur mind. after that super brain juice squeezing report on infocredit dun&bradstreet (nvm if u dont understand), and reading sources that amount to abt 20 pages+, and filling up lists,
chanel handbags and pw meetings (online and during pw lesson), and research piling up to an impossible to handle height. but then again, we cant slow down the pace, cos drafts up by wk 6. and it's bloody individual. thanks a lot. it totally doesnt make sense. like we have mixed resources of all sorts. how do we expect to make heal and tail out of our individual EoM. talk about project work's uniqueness in being TEAMWORK. irony isnt it. individual work at such an impt stage.
i dunno wads wrong with me la. i just tend to snap at things seeming to go against my will. it's human instinct (im not defending myself here), but im defending a bit too strongly i guess. stuff like discussing online or meeting up, im glad wee chern agrees with me to make it a 2-2. if not i may just flare up. ya, it's probably me being unreasonable, but it's that kind of times when u feel like the world (in this case the grp) is against u liddat. like wadeva u say wont be appreciated and accepted kinda thing. it's similar like how u spend effort to do something, and a person accepts work without any recgonition (like thanks), or even worse, rejects ur work and criticise it. that's like the last straw for me in grp work.
but im glad my grp isnt the unreasonable type. they are ppl who agree to discuss. which is like very nice of them. cos i really like to discuss stuff and arrive at decisions thru it. and face-to-face makes it soooooooooooooooooooooo much more sincere. and a lot of other feel-better factors to meeting up. thats why it is so much more productive. everyone gets to really hear each other. u wont be like missing out on stuff just cos u went to the toilet that kinda stuff. aiya, a picture speaks a thousand words la. u cant imagine how many words a live video playing in front of ur eyes (meeting up) can meet. dunno if u understand the analogy, nvm. haha im here supporting my stand again. nvm. some ppl just want company and like home-hater liddat, while some just prefer to stone and rot at home.
so dun care la. just see wad the grp has to say. they want anthing then jaaaz follow. after it's teamwork mahs. >.< im so contradictory.
voodoo-ed and killed at 10:21 PM
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
disclaimer: this is one of those posts that people reading may not understand. purely for complaining and relieving stress needs. so dont bother. just dont bother.
in a world where interaction is mandatory, feelings do come into play. problems naturally arise and cause certain effects to ppl's feelings. but why must i be the one who is born to take harder hits from the side effects and have problems arising near me which i just cannot seem to be able to do anything to solve or alleviate?
to be truthful, abt 6 hrs ago. i was feeling super pissed. why? imagine this scenario: 2 ppl whom u have known to be really gd buddies and frens just suddenly cant bear the sight of each other and just feeling bu shuang to be within 1m from each other.
the same 2 ppl talked abt everything under the sun a few months ago, and ate together, played together, sat together, crap, lame, laugh, joke together.
chanel handbags a few months later, one just zonks out of the world, living like a zombie life, occasionally waking up from beauty sleep to interact with ppl he nv interacted that much with b4. another lives life normally as though the other person didnt exist in his/her life, and just pretends the other person is transparent.
when space (as perceived) meets space (as perceived) in a confined area 6 hrs ago. i think perhaps like repel like rules is being applied here or smth. they just <- -> simple as that. i could very well imagine their conversation.
"hi, who are you?"
"oh hi, do i actually know u?"
"since we dunno. just dao loh. normal wad. i mean, did i actually be close frens with u b4?"
"same here."
i know i dont have a stand in saying wad is happening between the 2 of them. cos im not involved. but i can say for sure that there are effects. just like a game skill, area effect. ppl around all take dmg ok. the closer u are, the harder u get hit. hey hey, no prizes for one who is perhaps almost in between them?
null point, so no dmg? guess again.
so as a fren, i think the least i can do is to try and help the situation. i dont like this at all. totally dont. how i wish this is all an july's fool joke. i rather get laughed at for believing in wads happening now than it being true. but problem is, i really dunno wad to do ok? i cannot seem to input any sense into a zombified guy. and i cannot seem to initiate some action in the counter-daoing one. so dao here dao there. very fun is it? are the apples on ur heads so that if the knife cuts the apple on the head into 2 or something, theres a prize?
i tink lemons or lime will be a better option, noticing the acidity being spilt around. not of words or actions. but the acidity of the plain silence. and the freakingly awkward courtesy.
i seriously dunno wad to do. this is getting too much for me. mebbe things arent as bad as it seems, but pls do show the alleviated effect in my life ok? if u all think it's very fun. try tying a rope to 2 cars going in different directions to a maximum speed of 88516467841664641279364 km/h. hold on to them for dear life. and tell me how it feels.
i can tell u it's not gd. seriously it's not gd.
but as a gd fren, can i actually let go and cause their fatal car accidents to happen? the speed isnt like 1mm/h kinda of thing. but if things continue like this, i guess letting go is the best option. whether u all choose to slow down and turn back, thats ur own problems le.
seriously, I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS NIGHTMARE. please for heaven's sake. get back to normalcy. i still want my sanity.
voodoo-ed and killed at 10:30 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
hello. updating now le wenjie. see i so obedient.
actually been too busy mapling after the blocks to blog lol. and small events here and there la. well first of all, it's a super huge relief that blocks are finally over. so im telling myself to enjoy while i can, before the results come back.
Saturday
sat went to syf opening ceremony. before the thing i was like "wtf, my 2-4 and 7.30-9.30 2x exp all missed liao la. gg can. then it's going to be so ndp. can pon anot?" and i was keeping this mentality and cursing my hp for showing 2.01 all the way to 3.59pm. when we reached there abt 3+, queue queue queue outside and wait for schools to go in. wah like human flood liddat. soooo many schools soooo many ppl. we happened to see ppl with kfc boxes la, so envious lol. *stomach growls*
after we went in, we saw a whole sea of ppl at the national stadium playing with the air blown "pong pong sticks". then i was thinking again, "ndp student version".
*time flies*
after the thing ended, i felt it was quite nice la. a break from maple marathon. with all the band displays and cool formations, with the choir going song after song, and all the mass displays, it was quite pleasing to the sight and hearing. the theme was "Reaching Beyond". i was kinda awed by the tanjong katong secondary school militray band. interesting formations (batman, superman, star wars). and their DM was quite cool also. all 3 schools were all super zai la. deserve to be the top 3 schools in singapore lol.
in fact it was so nice to be with CO ppl again then i went with them, by WALKING 45 min all the way to suntec to have dinner. with stella, marilyn, shouhao, zhengyou, yuting, jiangchuan and eunice. then WALKED across the whole suntec, cross overhead bridge, enter citylink, and walk to esplanade stop to take bus. on the way back, i fell asleep and missed my stop >.< woke up at standard chartered there. so had to WALKED back home from there. i swear i lost some calories that day. im positive. by the way listening to "Reaching Beyond" by Chee Yang and Teresa now.
Sunday
sun was PA family day. due to last year's results, won some merit award. so was kinda forced to attend so as to be able to collect the money >.< and guess wad.
louis vuitton handbags the venue was held in the zoo. yes u heard it ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS. the mandai there that one. and as u know, it's so weird to go back to the zoo at this age. ur own singapore zoo. errr then nvm loh. just go. my dad is the kind who like to take pix with alomst everything, so poor me had to be his model every like 5 min. "see, that white tiger over there so nice! come come!" "wow the zebra stripes are nice!" "see these orchids in the orchid garden so nice!" u get the idea. but overall leh... also ok la. had food over at the pavillion by the lake where the PA family day and prize presentation was held. they went to recollect some memories of our parents by having five stones, hopscotch game stalls and food like muah chee, popcorn, potong icecream, candyfloss etc. like a mini carnival liddat. then also got lucky draw and stage games. after the thing we left and went to walk one round around the zoo loh. it hasnt changed much, according to my impression. the animals are still the same, the food areas are still the same, and the PRICES are also still the same. i wanted to buy a drink at the vending machine. when i approached and took a look at it, the next moment i walked away. it's like $2.90 for a bottle of coke can. school sells $1.00. but nvm la, once in a blue moon then come... lunch time le, we went back to the pavillion by the lake to collect lunch. guess wad, it was kfc!! (haha got back at u all, syfoc kfc-carrying schools) haha, so enjoying food and enjoying lake scenery, feeling happy, we went home. until i saw the clock in the car that read 2.12pm. IM MISSING THE LAST 2x EXP TIME SLOT DAY LE!
Monday
mon went out with 6D ppl. first 11+ met wensi and went kbox. peishan and wenjie supposed to come along de lohs. then suddenly they last minute go watch "she's the man". then wensi and me were like omg omg omg! we ordered 4 ppl liao, how!! then ask deren to come save us but he dunno wad go find weichung la at the dentist cos weichung had a dental appointment. he say supposed to play lan with him. but weichung after that teeth too pain liao, so the thing called off. lol!
thankfully dunjie and yongxian came to the rescue! (imagine them with wings and a halo) after the super late pq last night, they managed to wake up and come down to save me and wensi by taking up the last 2 slots. thanks sia. if not pay 4 ppl's share. omg. somemore that day more ex, cos holiday i think (youth day mah). 1 person cost abt $11. wenjie and peishan, no more disppearing acts le ok. if u all want to spend time alone, tell us earlier next time k?
after that other than the 7 of us (dj, yx, wj, ps, ws, dr and me), yushan also came despite her Chinese H1 on tue la. so zai haha. we went to play dota at cuppage. haha thx to dj our team were owning la. i was 2nd can. maxed lvl at 25 despite not playing for dunno how long le. razor roxor! ok la i know dr and wj giving way to me de la. i actually super noob one.
after lan went to plaza sing to having dinner at pastamania. then go walk a bit abt the place and went home. a really fun day haha!
oh and the day ended on a happy note sia. congrats to dj and yx for marrying in maple! zao sheng gui zi. gong xi gong xi.
so thats my post-blocks activities. im really trying to make myself happier before the results bomb descends upon me.
p.s can the results come back next year or something? i so dont want to die.
p.p.s i guess i must make myself happy now. at least i wanna die happy.
voodoo-ed and killed at 5:44 AM