ok i'm feeling guilty here. cos i'm totally blogging in the spur of the moment, or wad one will call random urge, and i probably ignored this blog for like say, more than 3 months? but well in any case, gotta say hey again blog. i guess everyone else probably forgotten abt you, me included. say, the last time i came to my on blog was a couple of weeks ago i would say?
*guilt written all over my face*
hmm dunno why, just suddenly felt like coming to my blog right in the middle of my show watching session (that's been going on like for the whole day lol. and im not even taking a break, i just paused ep12 at 11:24 to type all this). all in all, i wouldnt say i'm exactly having an extremely terrible time with my life (which is usually the reason why i blog here anyway), with stuff occupying my wkends, from ndp (oh wow how fun >.<), to study sessions with junzhi (actually more of him studying, im more of there to uh, learn extra stuff and kill time haha), to outings with platoonmates (looks like we've got 2 more buffets to go to,
chanel handbags this is so killing my diet plan - ok im kidding i dont even have one, which is terrible), to class gatherings (how can i ever forget these guys =D), and hopefully another meeting with sam and ryan despite their busy schedules. but well, somehow just suddenly i feel this sense of emptiness in me, and i'm not really sure why. ok mebbe im not like the worst-off man on earth now or something, and if you want me to pin-point anything in particular that's bothering me, i can't really put a finger to it. it's just this... overall feeling. nah nvm, i think it'll probably blow over soon? haven't listened to any new songs for a really long time ever since my mp3 spoilt and my radio went along with it. got a new mp3 now, but still no radio (yes i know im just too damn lazy to make an effort to >.<), but recently went to listen abit and this song just got me looping it over and over. i have no idea why though haha, like the lyrics but they do not apply to me. at all. funny huh.
曹格 - 寂寞先生
你的笑容是恩惠 世界难得那麽美
於是追 要你陪
可惜本能终会将美丽汗水化成泪水
黑夜之所以会黑 叫醒人心里的鬼
在游说 在萦回
在体内是什麽 在把我摧毁在伤痕累累
我可以无所谓 寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废
做什麽都不对 Oh … I'm not okay
我假装无所谓 才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰 无论多虚伪
空虚并非是词汇 能够形容的魔鬼
它支配着行为
能摆脱寂寞我什麽都肯给 就像个傀儡
我可以无所谓 寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废
做什麽都不对 Oh … I'm not okay
我假装无所谓 才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰~~
我要无所谓 无所谓
我要无所谓~~
人在爱情里越残废
就会越多安慰 (就会越多安慰)
无论多虚伪
perhaps the title does apply, just a little bit?
aiya i dunno wad's coming over me today. i dont even know who comes this blog anymore. i doubt many, since even i seldom come here anymore. but oh wells, it's mainly for my eyes only. people dont really have to know what i'm feeling. not that i'm doing a particular good job of describing it at all, seeing that i don't even understand it myself.
feeling empty and lonely huh.
i think i'm just being an emokid for tonight.