guess my posts run on a rather monthly basis haha. prob guess to the emo mood prior to every major outfield that make me want to blog. some kind of wanting to leave my last word before i head for hell i guess. >.< well this month has been crazy as usual, with one weekend of not being able to book out due to certain reasons. and guess wad, next week it's going to happen again, being stuck in camp right after horrible outfield. i keep trying to assure myself it's going to be the last leg le, just survive thru it and life will get better. but that doesn't stop me from thinking how horrible it will be, especially with the danger that i'll be attached to other coys to be their drivers if ps doesnt manage to save me... dreading it. even if i get to stay with the platoon, also dunno what i'll be doing. this is seriously one of the worst things i hate abt army, the uncertainty and just throwing you around like some taiji ball just cos you're a spare. oh please loh, i do have a platoon to belong to, so i should think i have the right to stay with them, where i belong ok? so stop pushing me around until im like this homeless soul can? if like that, might as well recreate the drivers to be isolated from any platoon and only draw drivers when exercises call for it. ok im just ranting on, of cos i wont want to leave the platoon to be isolated into some driver coy. the next week looms ahead with all forms of uncertainty... talking abt uncertainty, it's definitely the case for non-army stuff as well. namely my civilian life. or more aptly, my actual life. i have been dawdling for too long, and now the time has come for me to pick up myself (as in really pulling myself away from all the things i'm finding just to avoid all the impt stuff, like playing reflexive arcade games, watching movies, going out, reading twilight saga (and shopaholic series after that), listening to songs on youtube, and even using ber's psp to play pokemon emerald in camp). argh i feel horrible, like i'm seriously addicted into this slack mood when in camp. what happened to insisting on not buying psp cos i want to make time more productive? so feel kinda guilty =(. better get work done on EduGrain and EduDelta soon, if not will kenna killed by kg. and i would want to kill myself too. scholarship and uni applications are already around for god knows how long but i was just too indulgent into all the useless stuff that i couldnt bring myself to take a good look at them and understand how tight schedules are running. when i heard ry is already in the process of midway thru all those essays, my heart just twinged with guilt, and loads of fear for the fact that i may just miss it this year. with no thanks to my own procrastination. damn im starting to freak out.
louis vuitton handbags hope this confession-realisation will spur me to really get it started the next opportunity i get, which is so far away! (with no thanks to ns, which really know how to choose the perfect timing to confine me for the weekend. oh. my. god.) and driving! have been trying for ages to book a slot for FTT, but sat slots just refuse to come. i'm getting so irritated. but heck abt it first bah, once all these outfields are over i'm going to get started with practical lessons liao. i have dragged it for long enough, trying to find a sat slot. ppl like han zong and kevin who applied after me are all chionging and here i am taking my time la. sorry i seriously dunno what i have been doing all this while. all i know is if i don't get moving soon, i'm going to be in so deep trouble. so many things, so little time. and all i do is just to idle my time away. argh i hate myself =(. someone gimme a whack on the head or something to wake up to my senses. i'm just kidding abt the last part. so this weekend shall be my last enjoyable weekend before next week when all hell breaks loose. had quite a lot of fun on fri at justin's house with most of the other specs. munched on good food (justin's really a super good cook. mega talented sia. had beef burgers (which i didnt eat of cos), roast chix, mashed potato, coleslaw, bacon, stir-fried shitake mushrooms etcetc), baked fun stuff (chocolate caramel almond shortcake! and yong biao's chocalate coated lemon cookies, didnt get to try it though haha) and admired great art pieces (all the art works hung around the house are all damn cool! mostly made by him). after that met platoon guys at amk hub to catch he's just not that into you. i quite liked the movie for the comedy elements and yeah, i guess some can pick some funny lessons from the show =) but some may find it lacking in substance i would think. so i would say it's a... if u like it u like, and if u dont u dont, kind of movie. arcade was not bad, they got jubeat there =) and haven't played the new bishi bashi for quite some time. so yeah fun =) dinner was at chomp chomp where we turned into gourmets by testing out different stall hokkien mee and chicken wings lol, and then lastly followed by kt's house for mahjong and wii adventures! haha attendance rate was kinda good, hanzong wing kevin ber weihong joshua bok jeremy larence satan foo. was planning to go home after that, but foo asked if anyone wants to stayover, so i was thinking why not hang out around some more since it's the last weekend to have fun prior to next wk's hell. haha ended up me foo and bok went. didnt do really much, cos i was kinda tired from going out the whole day. bok and foo too i guess. so most of the activities happened on sat morning when he brought us to eat good vegetarian food at hougang. wah really very nice sia, must ask him to bring us there again soon. ate roti prata, bee hoon with dishes, and we even shared a mega mock big pao. it's really damn big sia haha. went causeway point after that to hang around (cos foo had some stuff to do there), so money flowed out of my pocket again to arcade gaming, following by a little book shopping at the harris book sale at the atrium. bought the sequel to he's just not that into you, it's called a breakup because it's broken lol. shall try to find the first book when i next book out bah. at night went airport to send yushan off. peishan wensi pengsing kg kevin puayhian yida ruiyuan dj yongxian me went haha. haven't been to airport for sometime since we last sent cheejia off (which she came back during new year and left again le. so it's been pretty long lol.) it's still quite a nice and quiet place i guess haha, quite cool to chill out, if only it wasnt so farrrrrr. (all the way at changi omg.) ate at popeyes (the queue is imba la, but the food is quite good, esp the sides, fries and mashed potato, dunno abt the coleslaw) at T1, before moving to T3 to send yushan. haven't seen the class for some time, close to a month i guess. wont be seeing them next wk either, so prob a fortnight later i suppose.. ok i can't wait for that day to come, mainly cos it means next wk's hell will be over!! urgh, im still seriously affected by next wk's uncertainty. prob the only thing im certain abt next week is that im going to be miserable. oh sooooo miserable >.< sighs... ok i've typed quite a long post and my parents have been bugging me to go bathe since like an hour ago. ok i better go, hope for the best next week and i must promise myself i will do something abt all the stuff i've neglected the next time i book out!!! ARGH I HATE MYSELF FOR PROCRASTINATING AND SLACKING.