Wednesday, June 28, 2006
ok. life is getting back to normalcy soon. with my comp at least. finally im getting back to my wireless keyboard. even my wireless mouse is working liao. but it's kinda battery exhausting... so nvm lo.
with school as well. block tests at least. with 3 down and 2 more to go, i would say that block tests are well underway. but then hor, things are not looking good for my results. i shant elaborate... dont wanna get demoralised again. it just totally sux.
actually also nth much to blog. just wasting time cos dont feel like sleeping, dont feel like studying. just stone. juuuuuuuz stone diao.
p.s. im gonna find a way to upload songs to my blog. somehow i jus cant succeed.
p.p.s. im getting a bit sian of the small font haha. must find a new skin with bigg font so as to make my posts look longer. take for example, this post is going to be wad, a palm's width or so? super short can.
(ok la, it is really quite short)
in any case, look out for new skin if i ever get down to it lo...
voodoo-ed and killed at 12:05 AM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
FINALLY. and i really mean finally.
2 wks of stupid comp spoiling and just stoning at home everyday. so just meng my 5.30pm - 11pm tv watching spree every weekday:
5.30 - 6.30 rerun of Holland V
6.30 - 7.00 rumiko anthalogy - gao1 qiao2 liu2 mei3 zi3 ju4 chang3
7.00 - 8.00 blue in rhapsody
8.00 - 9.00 any variety shows on either 8 or u or 5 that come my way
9.00 - 10.00 CID
10.00 - 11.00 used to be Da Chang Jin. now thinking of wad to watch.
so hey hey. i didnt exactly have a lot of time to mug without my comp >.< but i must admit, it does make me feel a bit better that i'm not spending time on my comp. (though im still wasting time on tv... so it doesnt make a diff) new comp. but old keyboard and mouse. and i mean very old. like from my old comp. cos now the comp driver got some problem, cant use my wireless mouse and keyboard. so im making typing mistakes like every line liddat. so weird to be typing after doing nth of such for 2 wks. the keyboard feels really weird. but at least im typing. (imagine me freaking out earlier in the afternoon when yay i finally see desktop but cannot do anything. really got use >.<) sian lehhhs. everything is gone!! all my songs and games amd pics and videos and programs.
replica watches worst of all, all my work!! now all i have of my chem ilps are the hard copies, so i must protect them like the holy grail.. (watched too much da vinci code.. nvm) and by record, i didnt do any computer work for the whole of sec 4! wow. nvm la... fresh beginning fresh start (consoling myself). so now calling out to everyone... send me SONGS and EMOTICONS!! in desperate need manz. but not this wk or so... cos blocks coming soon. i still got a long way to go in covering them... but just try la. just try to do my best loh. which isnt very sufficient for me to pass >.< sighs.
nvm, shant end on a sad note since it's celebrating the first day of my comp's birth! so come on, educate it with ur stuff man. send me all sorts of stuff... esp songs and emos!!! wo deng zhe ni...
voodoo-ed and killed at 1:26 AM
Thursday, June 08, 2006
hi, havent been posting for some time. time really flies. it's already the end of the 2nd wk of hols and havent started anything really proper!!
anyway, wk 10 had sabb kayaking 1 star and ocean ambassador, not bad la, felt that i learnt a lot. that wk flew.
hol wk 1 was co marathon. got to be a lot closer to CO, in particular tanbo and seniors with all our lunches and dinners and JTS and present giving to bid farewell to them after concert. they gonna prepare for 'A' levels le. here's wishing them all the best! then sun was concert. w00t. i really enjoyed it. thanks to all who came haha. sound like i got solo or something >.< but really la, thanks for spending $15 hehe. oh and thanks for the flowers. but they are dying le -.-
now mapling is like eating up my hols la. and lots of going out. having fun eh? thats not going to help my block tests la. gg le. fully dead. okok must buck up liao.
yup. here's the short report of my life so far. a bit not doing all the fun i had in these 2 wks justice, but just too much to say la hehe. cya. muz study wor!
if only life could be so cheerful and stuff. if only everyone can be in a spirited mood and be happy, high and all. if only there are no downs in one's life, only ups. but these are all impossible. life does have its downs. sometimes it just crumples together. so heavily. i could hardly breathe. yet i just cant lift a finger to help. to save myself. why am i so useless? why cant i buck up? i dunno. im just leaving myself to rot.
im totally screwing up my whole life.
mebbe i just cant be independent. ever since jc life, all the decisions i've made. i think more than half of them are like wrong. totally. i dunno wad im going to do to salvage the situation.
oh shit. im breaking down. not emotionally. more of... "literally". i cant really put it across. nvm.
oh ya. i just realised that perhaps wad people say are true. blogs although are supposed to show ur true self and for u to vent frustration and stuff, they can never reflect wad u truly feel. such things are forever kept in out hearts, not something that words or a webpage can help to express or anything. after all, they are meant for the public.
chanel handbags no matter how much u want to release ur sorrow or anger, theres always a limit in blogging. or ulterior motive of any kind. it's just...too fake. but in any case, im gonna try to continue blogging. even if they dont reflect wad i actually think. it still helps, to a certain extent.
but that doesnt keep me from being moody tonight.
bye all. saluting u: me, my sad songs and a cup of warm milo. of cos the night and the silence. thats of utmost importance.
p.s. man can be so superficial. if i had ended at the top portion, wad a different effect that is. how fake i could actually be if i ended there. thats so scary.
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:18 PM
VOODOO-ED.
life is like a needle.
a voodoo needle.
it pricks.
and it hurts.
every passing day,
it will find its way to prick me.
the moment i felt
the lethal injection enter my body,
i knew it was over.
this curse has been embedded into me,
not going to be lifted anytime soon.
for the next couple of decades at least.
it's too late.
don't start regretting.
the curse of life begins.
everything is no longer the same,
anymore.
try to accept it.
(i know i'm trying.)
i've been voodoo-ed.
and now,
i'm just waiting
for the effects to take place,
for the day to come.
waiting, for the curse to befall upon me.
simply waiting,
to meet my doom.
life's never the same again.
i'm voodoo-ed. and killed.