Tuesday, March 27, 2007
w00t. blocks are over. time to celebrate i guess haha.
and had fun i did man. thx to wenjie, our class and jnr class now on some monopoly streak, and we play every night haha. tonight's my best game so far! (though i kind of like became bankrupt 2nd and needed help from kelvin lol) at least my luck was way better than previously (though still quite lousy). as in like for once i managed to build hotels =.= finally see some red to my name liao.
2ndly, stumbled upon a game myth war since the hols when i saw the ad while playing miniclip (mugging period is very no life one). so took note of it and finally got to play ytd hahas. hmm so far so gd, the typical kind of mmorpg, and graphics are not bad i guess. and it's unique, cos the battle style is ATB, means go into another screen and attack turn based. kinda like FF liddat. haha cool. then still got pets to train and fight with u. the only complaint i have is the skills very simple and little! mebbe cos im a borg la, dunno. skill super boring. all buffs nia... was looking forward to some giant cannon thingy rofl.
3rdly, came totally unexpected. sam tan came my house yesterday, and started to intro me to MUD games. i also not sure how to explain la haha, they are just text based games that are quite fun la, i would say, though i think ill get sian after a while lol. but before that i must gain enough PL (power level) to transform or something! if not play so much just to learn meditate meh? =.= abit the fei if i stop liddat.
haha 4thly, audition as usual, though i havent played for some time liao.
hmm seems that i having a lot of fun hor? but not for long. results coming back liao... and just saw my econs drq results and roughly guildlines on how to answer essay. only one conclusion: totally GG for econs. and the most irritating thing is not i never study loh, i totally focused myself and mugged hard the last 3 days before blocks for econs. then come out all the answers is i know how to do one loh, then i just have to forget abt it and leave it out. major stuff somemore. i wont be surprised if my crappy essay failed -.- grrr.
damn sian la... i consider tried to study quite hard for this blocks le loh. but the results arent going to be satisfying at all la. mega sianzzzz. esp phy. i put in quite a lot of effort this time round la, but i know leaving 10 marks blank in the data analysis will kill me no matter how. so yeah, i kinda resigned to my fate la.
chanel handbags phy doomed to screw up, no matter how hard i try >.< maths also. i put in the most effort for it la, then come out tons and tons of careless mistakes. frig. sian. k nvm, for now i shall have as fun fun as i can before the term gets busier (it has already started actually lol, just that i dao my hmk: chem prac =[). this sun going to sao mu... sian, dunno how have to choose sun of all days T.T there goes any chances of hanging out in the wkend liao laa. hopefully ill be able to make it for kbox >.< though chances are 50-50 i guess...
but no matter wad, looking forward to the wkend!! (still got half the wk to strive thru. jyjy.)
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:15 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
voodoo-ed and killed at 5:04 AM
3.40 am and i barely finished thermal. and mind u, i like skimmed thru all the topics only la. ARGH. do i seriously want to fail phy.
cos ytd slept at like 5 (dont ask me why so late lol. i also dunno. definitely not mugging >.<), so today woke up at 12+. abit like half the day gone liao. then wasted today la, do waves and thermal nia >.< and still got EM and EMI and most imptly, PRACTICE QUESTIONS. it just occurred to me it's sunday liao le la. oh my tian. anyway, im really on an archive streak lol. was reading some archived posts from last year. then just now got this random inspiration to find back the previous blog i had, so was typing all sorts of random names i think i would have put in then. and ta-dah! i finally found it haha. it's as blue and black as before (i rmb how i used to make fun of my blog with that pun. >.<) argh being sec 2. rofl. haha i can finally trace all the way back to when i started blogging liao. 25/3/2003. haha it looks like it's a whole another year ago lol. i seem to have some very bloggy intentions when it comes to march hor lol. starting to blog, then restarting with my new "identity" d0tz, then this yr archiving and going to find back my roots lol. i seriously like finding ancestors liddat, try to trace and trace. hahas. it's funny where my interests laid in the past haha. damn funny to go back now and think of all the things i did when i was in sec 2 and 3. and how wu liao i was haha. looking at all these is really satisfying loh. u wont regret blogging at all la. totally. imagine if i hadn't blogged all these down, then i wont be able to recollect all these memories liao haha.
louis vuitton handbags wont even rmb wad i did for sec 2 MAF. and it's amazing la haha. reading my previous blog, i actually was in the same group as yuting and jasline for MAF2004! totally had to recollections la haha. and now we are sitting in the same CO, yuting in my section somemore lol. ahh blogging seriously rocks haha. i think ive been advocating this since my sec 2 blogging days le. quoting my sec 2 posts: "hey blog, you must know that i am sacrificing sleeping time leh!!! juz to blog you! must gan3 ji1 (be grateful to) me ok??? i very noble and wei3 da4 leh!!!" "well, that's all for today's blog, not too interesting lah... but still, they are the events that happened today lah! so must illustrate it....right here in my blog!" "so that's all lah, blog... nice time digesting all i have enjoyed today! MAF ROX!!!" hahaha. im sure u are also laughing at my naviety and all last time. i got a gd laugh at myself when reading too haha. seriously, to trace back to sec 2 days... *wanders off down memory lane* seriously hor, i also dunno why im so bloggish these few days lol. ever since i started to archive my past posts. mebbe this blogskin got weird effects. must be staring too much at the skeleton voodoo doll. hahas. i also didnt know i used to be so close to junyu! lol. this is really strange la haha. a strange but amazing feeling. i cant exactly describe it. for long-time bloggers, u should go do this when u got the time lol. i bet u'll feel this interesting feeling too haha. *switching to sec 2 mode*
ok blog, i going off liao. nth else to say le haha... but don't worry! i'll be back soon de! with more things to tell u! haha. byebye blog! i go slp le..."
voodoo-ed and killed at 3:39 AM
Friday, March 23, 2007
finally it's all ready! wahaha.
if u are reading this means u are facing a brand new blogskin lolx. (like duh.)
ok yeah haha, in any case, i finally got my blog a new skin =D thought it was pretty cool. took me the whole morning la haha. with all the choosing, then reselecting, and putting on my blog to see if it suited. etc la haha. oh the changing of tagboard colour damn troublesome, like couldnt find a nice match de >.< im damn proud of the poem thing i made in the homepage haha. ok i dont how others think la, it may look like some pri sch work or wad i dont care la, i like wad i wrote can le lol. hmm it's fri le, i successfully wasted one day to mug phy! yay. now another half day gone due to this blog. but i thought it was worthwhile haha. k should get started soon. unless i really want to get a U for phy. (not that the chances of getting U will fall even after i studied >.<)
oh yes, i finally included an archive section haha. havent been archiving for damn long. the past 3 blogskins i think, all didnt have archives. actually this skin didnt have either, but while going thru the other blog templates i realised something called archiving still existed, so specially went to put it in haha.
wah seriously hor, blogging brings u tons of memories... i was like randomly reading some posts from my past years since sec 3, then haha. damn nice to read them all over again sometimes. shall go reread everything again after blocks lol.
chanel handbags then i realised how noob i sounded in sec 3 rofl. very like uh... dumb loh lol. (actually it's quite similar to now la haha. but aiya heck, that's how i am. noob then noob bah lol.) hmm also realised i kinda made my blog die quite a no. of times. i think this time is the longest i've kept my blog running lo. lol. got 1 yr plus le i think. let's hope my passion to blog continues admist this crazy schedule in school =D
haha btw finally got it clear that i began this blog on 2/3/2004 lol. (although i think i blogged b4 that on some other site. i cant rmb liao.) so technically, it has been 3+ years! lol. nice. too bad my blog's bdae passed liao. by abt 20+ days. nevertheless, happy belated bdae d0tz! (omg im going bonkers liao.)
thats all bah, hope everyone finds the new skin nice lol. cyaz.
voodoo-ed and killed at 12:40 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
yoyo back again. seriously serious hor, this chem test is made for u to fail de la -.- totally didnt have time to do finish, then of all things to give a 20 mark qn on, they tested proteins =.= which i hardly touched. argh. i feel like giving up liao. work so hard, mug so much for wad. apparently it's not paying off loh. econs liddat, maths liddat, now chem also liddat. feel like just daoing phy and getting a U la.
though i know of cos i wont do it =.=
ytd stoned whole day at home and attempted to study chem. quite failure i would say. only got myself started abt 1. then by the time i slack and finish organic chem it was 9.30. reaction kinetics too another 2 hrs. so i hardly finished my energetics la. so forced myself to wake up at 3+ to continue. then laglaglag, by the time i was awake enough to start, it was abt 5 le bah. lol, no wonder i screwed the test up.
then today after the screwed chem test, went to bukit timah food centre to eat lunch with class ppl. haha tried the western food, not bad :D. can go eat the baked rice next time haha. after that went to west mall to watch movie. cos most of them wanted 300, then ruiyuan and i didnt feel like watching, so ended up watching mr bean's holiday haha. wanted to choose something light hearted and relax a bit from this irritating blocks haha. and it did quite achieve its effect =)
i thought the show was really quite funny haha. as in dumb but not totally idiotic. like funny but not brainless. i think lol. the kid act quite well also haha, complemented mr bean really well. i love the scene where they act out the song they played from a speaker haha. very funny. and esp all the applause and money
louis vuitton handbags got after that :D. and all the calls they made haha, to so many random ppl lol. damn funny. ruiyuan and i were laughing nonstop at the clay clarkson's film at the end also lol. "a clay clarkson film.... directed by clay clarkson... by clay clarkson studios... starring clay clarkson... featuring..." ya u get the idea lol. and the effect when the title is playback time and then we see the tape rewinds and replay again. mind u we keep looking at his face non-stop haha. totally narcissist :D and the end haha, when all his narcissist and attempts-to-be-emo-and-knowledgeable-but-failing-to-do-so comments fit the images mr bean was playing so well la!~ totally apt. meng laugh :D:D:D:D
haha i dont mind "spoiling" cos it's really the kind of show where u cant just know the plot. must watch it for urself for the effects lol. so yeah, it's not that waste of money la, i think. to me at least. so can go watch if u are feeling stressed up or sad of some sort. will liven up ur spirits de! =D
hmm today really no mood to mug for phy. lol i think i really lost the motivation liao. hopefully i wont like continue to slack my way to mon lol. then gg liao. meanwhile, happy wkend to geoggers, and "happy" wkend to phy ppl =) sigh.
i want to relieve stress.
voodoo-ed and killed at 7:57 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
haha havent blogged for real long. since tml no paper, shall spend some time to update this quite dead blog lol. seriously, j2 is damn boring la. so sian until i got nth much to blog about at all.
hmm blocks so far have been quite screwed. seems that the effort i put in like not paying off de loh =.= argh screwed results for sure.
i cant wait for blocks to be over la. i want to go kbox! vent frustration! just sing my lungs out man. seriously. then go watch movies or something. this yr so deprived until i only watched 2 movies la =.= totally pathetic. so yes, finding ppl to hang out with once next mon gets over and done with.
lol i dreaming abt post blocks when only half of it has passed. but nvm, one must have goals to motivate themselves isnt it? =D
hmm i think it's time for a new look (i think i said that b4 the new year, but nvm lol). shall go about looking for something new after blocks. that shall be another motivation too wahaha.
oh great i ran out of things to say le. k nvm haha. thats all bah.
wad a crappy post.
voodoo-ed and killed at 5:09 PM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
ahh studying is so sian. seriously la. every 15 min i will feel like slacking off le. im so terribly behind schedule can. and all the chem i studied like never study at all. i think i forgotten everything le >.< wth. anyway, ytd went kelvin's house to mug. haha quite fun lol. was listening to songs on his laptop and studying in his room. haha now got quite a lot of nice songs waiting for him to send me. like li sheng jie and some other random songs lol. oh yea, he showed me pictures of his family overseas holidays. super nice can!! esp new zealand. although i went nz during sec 4 annual camp, but hor, i see all the things his family did, haha chao envious. like bungee jumping, visiting winery, climbing glaciers, sitting on this super fast speedboat, and not to forget all the uber cool scenery!! haha i seriously have to see all that for myself, if not ill like die with regrets lol. (ok a bit kua zhang.) itching for a holiday liao hahas. oh yea,
louis vuitton handbags went downstairs to the clubhouse to gym and play squash somewhere in the afternoon. haha cos kelvin lemme use the zai racket, thats why i can be a lot less noob than wad i originally supposed to be. but hey, i thinking my serving improve a lot la haha. i still rmb i started off like forever miss the ball liddat. like some serious problem with hand eye coordination. u know, like that kind of cmi one haha. but now i think i can serve a lot better le la! but the playing is still quite noob la haha. aiya must practice more i think. went back bathed, then continue to mug and listen to songs haha. after that went home le. i seriously think im going to fall sick or something. other than this stupid sore throat irritating me, i sometimes feel a bit dizzy and my head like pounding, like all the blood flow to my head liddat. and my whole body aches from ytd lol. sian, chao weak. kk back to uber sianness of studying... >.<
*half-dead and signing off...
voodoo-ed and killed at 5:39 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
haha havent blogged for ages. mostly cos there's seriously nth to blog abt sch. damn sian. >.<
anyway, went to smu open house on sun with ruiyuan wenjie peishan. haha i thot it's quite interesting, and the talk let me gain some knowledge abt business and stuff i guess. quite fun hahas. after the talk, went to bk at raffles city to eat, then went back to walk walk again lol. wanted to take some free hippo ride at 3, and we waited, then it got postponed -.- so we gave up and left lol.
oh ya the campus is pretty cool haha, the underground passage linking all the buildings together got this very cooling feel, like airport liddat. then got a lot of shops, just that they were all closed, since it was a sunday la. haha im surprised at the shops they have la. bookshops, cosmetics, foodcourt, cafes, banks, and even a clinic and dental centre. haha but quite an enjoyable walk thru the passageway =). oh yea, theres this big steps place, very cool to take pix, but cos when we wanted to take, there got ppl, so attempt failed. but haha it's a nice place, i think for watching performances or something de.
after smu open house, we walked ALL THE WAY, to somerset (i think we quite zai lol) and met juniors to play pool at cine. cos they had huang cheng at night. got kevin kelvin clarence huanzi huijie hanlin joseph. haha dunno it's some coincidence or wad,
chanel handbags almost everyone wore polo haha. got some telepathy i think :D haha quite fun la, played 1 game with ruiyuan. i was as noob as ever, and i only won cos ruiyuan help me get in 3 balls la. and i took forever to the get the black ball in -.- seriously, i could do with some practice. a lot of it i think.
after that wj ps and ry left, and i had dinner with some juniors. huijie, clarence, kelvin, huanzi. haha not really have dinner with them la, since i didnt eat. but cos i really didnt want to go back home and face all my notes, so decided to loiter around outside for a longer time. haha.
and block test seriously sucks. i need to mug everyday like it's A levels liao liddat =.=. my mum nags non stop. i think if i screw up this block test, i next term gg liao. cannot go out le i think. and im totally behind schedule cann. i probably havent done wad i was supposed to do 2 days ago. argh, sian diao. and mugging seriously drains energy la. i dunno fell asleep on my sofa how many times in a day. read read read then eyes start to close and then, zzz liao. then worse thing is when i wake up, i cant seem to rmb wad i had read b4 i slept la. argh gg-fied.
all i hope now is i wont screw up as badly as my promos bah. im trying to mug liao. trying being the keyword. sianzz. jyjh jyjh jyjh jyjh jyjh!! lol.
voodoo-ed and killed at 8:45 AM
Monday, March 05, 2007
had a busy wkend. cos of A level results, today is a school holiday. but before i get into that proper, i wanna thank everyone who have tagged on my tagboard, and those who spoke to me on msn. really thanks a lot. but till now i still dunno whether wad im doing is the right thing or not loh, but ill just try to keep it like it was loh. trying to get over it. as long as i still have gd friends, i suppose ill just have to give up on those who dont appreciate my company. cos it's then not totally my fault wad.
arigato to everyone hor =). feeling much better after emo-ing that night till abt 3+.
anyway sat had CO from 11am - 3pm. alighted opposite hcjc and walked towards the out gate of chinese high and wanted to enter thru that to go to mph. but it was closed =.=. then i thot the hcjc side gate always closed one, so walked all the way to the chinese high in gate and backtracked after im in the campus to mph. damn far can. i think i got walk 1+ km la... sian diao.
after CO met up with xinying and kelvin together with peizhi. the 2 had ccas in the morning. then we went to al ahzar to eat. xinying and peizhi ate murtabak special, kelvin ate pratas and i ate chicken murtabak. with a milo dino each haha. late lunch/early dinner was quite nice la haha, gossip a lot of random stuff lol. then xinying played with us "this is where it all begins" haha. shant describe much abt the game la, but basically i got it after a while cos it was similar to one i played b4, but kelvin and peizhi i think till now also havent geddit yet haha.
after that went back school to change. peizhi and xinying went to bathe. then prepared for talentime! haha. quite a lot of jnrs and snrs went i think, cos support wensi cheejia and yijing ma. uh then most of class were at yushan's house making banner, so they were late. we went to book 3 whole rows haha, to reserve seats for both class ppl. oh ya, me and kg bought one rose each at the network booth to give wensi and cheejia haha.
shant go abt describing (that'll take ages), but basically it was not bad la haha. wensi and cheejia sang very well la, dunno why the judges didnt let them win champs. im very sure it's not the voting loh, since wenjie say he voted like 500+. and he said yongxian voted more than him lol. totally imba. im amazed they didnt win the most smses sent. omg i cant imagine how many smses the winner sent. 1000+ perhaps? =.= rich guy sia. but still 2nd is still very qiang haha. then yijing's dance also quite zai haha, with all the frogleaps and cartwheels. very entertaining also. =) gd job on geting 2nd for creative category!
the guest performers were gd too =) very nice. haha diya very lame lol. or rather i should say the emcees very lame. hahaha, their convo is just very amusing. "happy!" "diya you're very humourous" hehe.
after talentime went with some jnr and snr class ppl to eat at kap, till abt 12, then went home le.
then today since it's a sch hol, so decided to hold jts today. and the turn out was gd! i think 24 snrs and 23 jnrs went. thats a lot la haha. nice one =) went to dragon gate restaurant at harbour front centre to eat dimsum buffet.
but the night b4, discussed with kelvin on going there, then so coincidental both of us wanted to cut hair tgt! lol. damn qiao. so met up at 9.30 to go bukit timah plaza to cut hair lo. cos it was too early i think, so monsoon which kelvin usually goes not open. then we ended up going up to soh to cut our hair loh. but cos it was too early, cecilia not there yet. she always cut my hair one. so bo bian, let the 2 ppl present there cut. haha i a bit dui bu qi kelvin, dunno whether his hair is ok. cos mine's like quite disastrous. um actually i also dunno la, cant really tell. just... feels different loh. sighs. nvm. shall console myself it will grow back soon and i can go get it cut by cecilia again...
haha anyway after the haircut took 61 and met alvin at the harbourfront bus stop. then wj brought us into restaurant. had to enter from the carpark de, so weird. but the place was quite big la, then the food also not bad haha. sat with dj yx weiye benwu kevin jinlei and alvin. the rest like eat quite little lol, only alvin and i there polishing the food haha.
louis vuitton handbags feel so bad, like the food come we koup koup koup then no more le. paiseh haha. then we meng order la haha, it's like eat finish the food on the table, then me and alvin will look at each other and say "wad's next?" then start scrolling the dimsum list lol. hmm not bad place for dimsum i think :D. got cha shao su, siewmai, xia jiao, fried wanton, char siew pau, shrimp dumpling, sausage, fruit dimsum even. aiya just a lot la. also got dessert, honeydew sago haha. then after eating, our table went to play gei wo tempo ready go and the hands game haha. the hands game chao difficult la, the one with the tap - continue, taptap - reverse, pound - skip. ben wu like quite zai haha, always last till near the end :D. then i think the other tables also play stupid games haha, like meng laugh and make a lot of noise haha. =)
after jts went vivo to shop around, went topman/topshop and some went to adidas shop to play foozball. lol their addiction is seriously... serious. ok no laming intending in the previously sentence. then decided to watch movie. budden cos of deciding on wad movie and blahs, then the grp split into 3. one grp of ppl went to watch protege (including me), another grp wanted hannibal rising, and the last grp didnt want to watch movie and went to town to play pool i think. the hannibal rising grp were all snrs then the pool ppl all jnrs. only the protege grp a bit of mixture. but sigh, a bit sad to split up like that.
haha protege was quite nice i think. just a bit er in some parts. to me la. haha... kelvin was just telling me in the morning that horror movies can scare him de. applies for me too. so i was looking elsewhere when the blood was oozing out from andy lau's wound when he died lol. and the hand =.=. seriously. i would have been xia dao if it wasnt so fake.
after that dinner with kg kelvin alvin at seah im foodcentre. then took 963 back to bukit timah and changed bus back.
sorry abt the lack of details lol. but ive seemed to lost my touch for blogging again. this post feels weird. and uh for duh reasons like tml got sch and im quite tired from today. yawn.
and i know i very slow, but recently then got hooked to step up soundtracks. (yes yes i know it's very long ago liao) but still they are nice wahaha. wenjie lend me!!
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:56 PM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
HYPOCRITE.
this word has been ringing in my head for years. sometimes i cant help but think, why do certain ppl call me that? is it really so that my way of making friends with ppl, my way of networking, my way of socialising, my way of dealing with interpersonal issues have been wrong through and through?
i really dunno. totally lost. i forgot abt the time when i first got to learn abt that word, but i really got to feel the impact of having someone call u that in sec 2. and once in sec 4. and now it's happened again.
is it some continuous cycle? am i fated to meet ppl who i try to be close to but end up labelling as a hypocrite and ending a friendship like that? i really dunno. does the fault really lie so deep in me? so much so that after a span of 4 years, and 2 incidents, and i still cannot learn from my mistakes? am i just born to be a hypocrite or something? im clueless.
it's not a nice feeling to have this term haunting u for 4 years. but it's really not within my character to be straightforward and direct to ppl. i just cant say it straight out like, "ok yes. u suck. chanel handbags totally. just go to hell." wad else could i do other than just keeping silent when some things ppl do or say is directed at others. im not the kind who'll go "you dont say this abt him/her. u are the one that is at fault." and when ppl start to find out that u are after all not siding with him/her, u get labelled as a hypocrite. thats the main reason why ppl call me that, cos i try not to make any enemies on any side.
so i get my retribution by ending up making enemies on both sides?
that's just me wad. if there can be ppl so straightfoward they are practically aiming daggers at ppl, there can also be ppl who tries to shield everyone, and not choosing to take either side strongly. why do these ppl have to be labelled as hypocrites? is it any wrong just to keep silent and maintain the peace being withheld now? will it be any better if u sided with someone and totally break off all connections with the other side?
so im a hypocrite. does that mean u all are asking me to be direct and cutting and hurt ppl in the process? why cant i just be the middleman and not disrupt the peace?
i really dunno la. if im apparently a hypocrite, then there's nth u can do. cos there's nth i can do either. maybe im just doomed to be labelled as that forever. maybe im really one.
so many maybes... but there's one thing for certain. i HATE the word. TOTALLY. i may lose a friend in the near future. but i dunno wad to do either. hopefully, it'll never happen. it never ceases to amaze me how impt friendships are to me. but wad can i do? frowns and tears are not going to solve any matters.
i dont want anyone to hate me. i seriously dont...
voodoo-ed and killed at 1:16 AM