hey guys, havent been blogging for a while. cos enjoying the hols i suppose, haha.

ok i know i sound a bit down la, cos kinda just realised some stuff. i think people come to this stage every once in a while, but it seems to happen too often for me (or mebbe i'm just too sensitive, which should be the case).

it just seems that everytime i hear ppl telling me honest stuff about me, i always will be liddat one... i mean i know im not a saint or something, but sometimes i just dont realise that i have actually been behaving this way... it's always this or that or another bad thing.... it just never stops coming.

so as usual, im gonna tell myself that i must really change for the better and hope that some ppl will change their impression of me loh... i know i have kinda embedded forever hatred in certain ppl's hearts, chanel handbags be it CO mates, classmates or ex-friends. everybody have flaws, im aware of that, but im just not too used to knowing i have so many of them. but hey come on, pls dont stop telling me honest abt my own character, i really do want to change... so pls dont stop.

sigh, let's hope for the better la. hope to see a better me. tml will be a better day. well, just hope to see a change in me (ill try real hard), be it anything. used to think it was external, but now i think internally, lies so many other flaws... i do wanna start afresh. ARGH, i hate all the dmg i have inflicted. why did i do that? i wish time could travel back...