it's one of those nights again. had a afternoon nap, thus dont feel like sleeping even if it's already 4am now.

4am, a time for some amongst us to wake up already. possibly on to their work, which requires an early start. like the market ppl?

4am, also a time for some amongst us who still havent slpt. possibly taking leave tml, thus out there partying and having fun. or for the j2s, mugging into the depths of the night. or for some, plainly spamming games till tml morning b4 sleeping. those avid gamers.

4am can as well be a time for one to sit down in front of their comp, quietly taking in the night air at the window. looking at the dark sky and street lights twinkling. hmm no moon nor stars tonight. just black squares after black squares of dark rooms of buildings from my view. the whole city is still in slumber. my estate at least. nth much to be sad abt, since it's the hols after all. but yet, like a habit, im tuning in to foolish games, which never fails to make the night more meaningful and awake.

been doing a little thinking of this year. i dunno how well or badly i fared in academic, cos it's after all a new level of syllabus and change in study style, so i guess i need time to get used to it (though 10 months is a little long to adapt). but personality wise. there have been ups and downs as expected i guess. hopefully more ups than downs, chanel handbags but i wouldnt know. the class has been a really fun and nice bunch, and i hoped i treated them the same way i feel they treat me. of cos, squabbles occur. but overall, i hoped i havent made any enemies. for all u know, there can be someone who is always cursing at my presence. oh wait, there's already that someone. hope there wont be any additions to that.

6th november. time really flies, doesnt it. im going to go for ocip shanghai in no time, and by the time i return, it'll be like end of nov le. it's scary how it's passing so fast. i want to accomplish so much, so much more than what i think i can do with the limited time. but i have no idea what exactly i want to accomplish. but definitely not rotting at home everyday, munching on biscuits and reading books, playing dota AI, kongkongsea, audition, or o2jam. neither do i want to commit myself to anything, like a job even. highly impossible.

i think im uttering nonsense as usual haha. nevertheless, im determined to do something this hols. for starters, mebbe my resolutions. yes, i shall begin with that. for one, i think i learnt how to play mahjong liao, at least the basics haha. mebbe ill find a day to ask someone to teach me cycling. or skating. or rollerblading. or mebbe even one day out at sea kayaking. yes i think ill do that.

musically wise. my guitar shall come into use, though it's classical. i will learn some simple piano songs. i will work hard in my instru, and MEBBE ill even go for the concert for ruanzu. but not high possibility, since i like ponned for... 6 months? =.=

i dont really know wad i should do now. sleep seems so far away. yet the morning is approaching. perhaps ill take a cold shower now. give myself a refreshment. meanwhile do somemore thinking.

When You Believe - Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
(Oh yes)

There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
(Oh yeah)

In this time of fear
When prayers so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
With heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles when you believe
(When you believe)
Though hope is frail, its hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
(You can achieve)
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And its easy to give in to your fears
(Oh)
But when you’re blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight through the rain
A small but still, resilient voice
Says love is very near
(Yeah)

There can be miracles
(Miracles)
When you believe
(Lord when you believe… ooh oooh)
Though hope is frail
(Though hope is frail)
Its hard to kill
(It's hard to kill… ooh oooh)
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
(You can achieve)
When you believe
… oooh
Somehow you will
(Somehow, somehow, somehow)
Somehow you will
(Now I know)
You will when you believe

You will when you
You will when you
Believe
Just believe
Just believe
You will when you believe