im super pissed off now. the funny thing is. i don't even know why.

it must be the stress piling up on me now or something. im getting angry over small stuff. very very small stuff. >.< emo emo emo. staring at the phy tut section 2 not knowing how to do 2/3 of it cos the lecture didnt even go thru those parts. and we are expected to finish the 17 mcq by tml's tut. oh wow. having pe tml. im still aching all over with yesterday's gymming with wj and ps. then still need to run. or worse, pull ups. or worst, height and weight. but i cant exactly blame anyone for that huh. jielun just reminded me to bring the ruanzu costume tml for yunheng to bring it over to miss ding. the nice thing is with pe tml, i going to bring shoebag as well! whee. so plus the costume, that will be no hands free! yay. oh the nicer thing, my dad working night shift tonight, so tml cannot fetch me to school. oh wow. im gonna train my zhan4 ma3 bu4 on the bus lo. and the implication of handing over our costume might jolly well mean i've been kicked out of ruanzu. ok that may not come as much so as a surprise since ive been so slack, but it was fun while it lasted alright. without a placing in ruanzu, i feel empty somehow. like eliminated. byebye. gg. never to see you again. heck care abt u. u can jolly well go to hell. and kind chunkang after all these costume thingy told me super duper last minute that comm serve resumes tml! oh wow, just nice right on a thursday. especially ive been complaining how choosing thur for comm serve date has clashed with so many school events that the fei yue ppl dont know, and my attendance is jolly well <50%. u know how super irritating it is? when u choose thursdays, then u still expected to go for comm serve on days like sports day, racial harmony, teacher's day, louis vuitton handbgs post-track&field half day. tell me it's coincidence that all of these land on a thur. so happens so that im expected to wait in school till 4.30, then enjoy my bus ride there and conduct my comm serve. and to top it all off, they have to start the comm serve this year on a THURSDAY. oh the fact that there's a maths test on fri really helps to alleviate the situation a lot. indeed. and i havent called sherena to tell her that we not going to do the local CIP with MDAS anymore after discussing quite a lot. and i dunno wad to tell her either. that will take some thinking i guess. all these trivial matters -> larger implications.

WTF.

i dunno why im pms-ing over this kind of small thing. but i just feel super touchy. i think im going to snap soon. someone gimme a target that i wont feel guilty after snapping at it. and i guess this post it gonna garner lots of thoughts like im angry over small things and im petty and stuff. oh yeah, perhaps im really in the fault for everything stated above. but gimme a break alright. there's more to it. esp getting kicked out of ruanzu.

aiya, no one will understand de la. just continue thinking wad u want.