having a very emotionless week. as in the week feels especially long to me. then things just revolve around me and time just passes by. it's seriously damn boring. napfa this week. total disaster. i dun really want to talk abt it either. just one conclusion. i better get started on some training routine, if i dont want myself to suffer for two whole years >.<

finally the long awaited wkend is coming soon. and i emphasise soon, not now, cos tml still got two hurdles to ram thru. i got no energy to jump across it le. gp essay outline, and phy mock spa. grr. dunno if ill collapse tml. doubt so though. how i wished i could. then could escape this kind of life for that few hours i faint.

i wonder if it's the impending and gradual building up of stress over syf. the worry over wad we can get from it? i dont really know. i think CO ppl are getting into the mood le la, so hopefully we'll turn out fine. jiayou hcco!

but i think wads bothering me more is smth else. i dunno how to elaborate, and dont wish to either. argh, that impending doom feeling is coming again. haizzz. dunno why i just cant seem to get out of this quicksand sucking me in. this bottomless pit im falling in. this labyrinth of pitch dark caves.

parasitism. i hate it.

on top of the syf pieces we played in SCH for our rehearsal last sunday, been looping this song. dunno la, somehow i just like it quite a lot.

孙燕姿 - 逆光

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀
很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下
有一束光
那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下
有一束光
那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
我以为无路后退
反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗
才发现你就是光芒!
有一束光
那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
光芒
你是光芒

forgot abt my promise to myself to look happy. k shall rmb it from tml onwards! smile smile smile. im damn happy!!

lol. the irony of this being an emo(tionless) week.