finally testmania is over for this week. chem test on mon, maths test on wed, econs test on thurs. can breathe a great sigh of relief. just econs tut and gp essay tml before i embrace the weekend.

hmm i dunno why but i just feel a bit emo tonight haha. the tingling sensation kind, not the mega emo-ness and throw tantrums or cry like crazy kinda emo. just this tiny sense of emptiness and envyness of ppl around me.

it's a strange feeling i would say. i mean on one hand u are happy for all the good things that are happening around ppl, yet on the other hand u are a tad disappointed cos those things are not happening to u. chanel handbags mean yeah, it should be quite selfish or bad for me to even think of that, but hey, we are all human after all. who wouldnt want some good in their lives? so i wouldnt put it across as jealousy.

but envy, yes, envy.

what a funny thing haha. here i am trying to indulge myself in this emo-ness, blogging and listening to songs wensi just sent me (which her fellow emocake sent her haha), yet im reaching out for my milo and some kueh my mum asked me to finish. so i guess that's a failed attempt to feel emo yeah? haha. guess it's too early for it. the tv was just on 10 min ago beside me.

hmm random.

talking abt random, i suddenly feel like doing something just like that. i wanna make a trip to somewhere where there are hardly anyone, be it the beach, top floor of some high-rise building, or some nice park. just hang around there and look at wads around. the sea. the greenery. the concrete jungle. the sky. anything. mebbe i should really do that some day. during the hol perhaps. if there's even time. with ccas and remedials and mugging for blocks.

BLOCK TEST 2. urgh. i shudder just thinking of it.

anyway back to the being envious thing. yup i should just stop doing that. someday i will find out that im actually better off than loads of ppl, and i should live to be optimistic and happy and cheerful and blah blah. haha but not now i guess. soon soon. so yup, i must say again the dominant portion is still happy and glad that ppl around me are living well. so yeah, appreciate wad u got and cherish them well! they don't come easy...

so yeah. i gotta be happy.

but that doesn't stop me for being emo for just one night...