Thursday, July 05, 2007
vexed.
actually i also dont really have any idea why so. just feeling down cos of these few days. cos of sch reopening? cos of having showcase and not feeling like catching up with school work after going home late each night? or cos of results? i dont even have an idea.
guess sad song therapy's up for tuning in to tonight.
my mum is already like asking me abt getting ready for prelims. after i told her how badly im going to screw up for this block test. why dont i feel any sense of urgency? and now due to having cca everyday, i just slack the night away after coming back. just lack the motivation to do any work. totally.
i know it's stupid to blog abt this. but i have like no other avenues to rant liao. then as i look back at my jc life, i think i practically have no achievements these 2 years. just this plain ordinary guy. any tom dick harry u can pick in hwachong. oh scratch that, i bet anyone u pick in the school will have like more achievements than me.
and looking at that, i wonder wad use will i be of if i screw up my results even. then ill be like nothing at all. this useless failure. and hey u know wad? i am screwing up very badly for blocks. like seriously dead.
and at the end of these 2 years. ill like have totally nothing. nothing like in records or anything official. plus a screwed A-level cert. hah. that'll be me. someone who totally screwed up his jc life by not working hard or attempting to participate in more stuff.
oh crap. im starting to rant like rubbish. this is a stupid post. just pretend u have never read it. i think ill take it off after i feel better.
(i think it's just a case of zibei-ing over my results. i prepared to see none of my subjects having more than 20 percentile.)
btw, listening to this song recently. quite nice to listen to tonight.
王力宏-
落叶归根举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走
日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾
命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔～远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像
落叶归根坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像
落叶归根家唯独在你身边
举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走
日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾
命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底
喔～远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像
落叶归根坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像
落叶归根家唯独在你身边
但愿陪你找回
所遗失的永恒
当我开口你却沈默
只剩一场梦
我却像
落叶归根坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像
落叶归根家唯独在你身边
voodoo-ed and killed at 11:08 PM
VOODOO-ED.
life is like a needle.
a voodoo needle.
it pricks.
and it hurts.
every passing day,
it will find its way to prick me.
the moment i felt
the lethal injection enter my body,
i knew it was over.
this curse has been embedded into me,
not going to be lifted anytime soon.
for the next couple of decades at least.
it's too late.
don't start regretting.
the curse of life begins.
everything is no longer the same,
anymore.
try to accept it.
(i know i'm trying.)
i've been voodoo-ed.
and now,
i'm just waiting
for the effects to take place,
for the day to come.
waiting, for the curse to befall upon me.
simply waiting,
to meet my doom.
life's never the same again.
i'm voodoo-ed. and killed.
