haven't been updating for sometime. in case anyone still haven't got a clue, i've been spending the past week in NUH ward 57 bed 6, down with ITP (idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura) and tested positive for one of the dengue tests. 7 full days in bed, having to be wheelchaired wherever u go, and that includes the toilet. so i hardly walked more than 30 steps in those 7 days i think.

basically it's just this problem with extremely low platelet count (i was admitted with platelet count of 12k, compared to a normal range of abt 150k), resulting in unnatural bruising and even some superficial bleeding in my right eye. but thankfully they hurt a lot less than they look.

now that im discharged (with a grand total of 40k on sat), have been on att c and staying at home. well, i dunno if it's the drugs acting as some sort of depressant or wadnot, but seriously i havent been feeling myself ever since i came back. in fact, i think i was a whole lot happier during the time i was in hospital. partially, it's probably due to the side effects from the medication, making me feel extremely useless =.= i feel slight discomfort at my joints when walking (probably due to the long time made to spend in bed in case of internal bleeding), having this water retention problem that isnt helping me feel better, as bloatedness sets in and im pretty reluctant to take in fluids. and kinda to top it all, i got all this tiny sharp headaches and migraine after being up for a little too long. prob i could add in that my spine feels kinda weird, though i hope it's just probably due to the bone marrow extraction test done on me last wk.

actually i also dunno what im ranting abt. it's probably the drugs making me go bonkers or wad. but on a psychological mode, im feeling equally bad as well. now under att c, im being requested to stay at home and rest, and that pretty much cuts me off from the world. at least during my stay in hospital, my spirits really lifted when ppl came to pay me a visit, and for that im really thankful. you guys made my stay in hospital a lot more comfy. uh thanks to ryan, sam's mum, wenjie, peishan, yushan, pengsing, ruiyuan, kwangguan, huijie, jieyee, peizhi, clarence, jianting, limyuan, and esp esp my family. louis vuitton handbags so sorry if i missed anyone out. but really thanks a lot all the same. now, feeling like a zombie at home, cos there's pretty much nth to do, and no one ever thinks of paying home visits once the guy's out of hospital ma. it's just no longer that... obligated. haha.

ok la, i admit, feeling kinda lonely. being in bmt, they forever flood u with activity after activity, and after u bookout, you want to make use of ur precious bookout time so much u find all sorts of stuff to occupy urself and end up hustling from one place to another. but stricken with something like this, you cant help but have to slow down and take things easy. i dunno how long is the next time ill probably feel well again to go do some jogging or exercising. and with so many guys in NS, and the rest all working, dunno when will i probably have the chance to meet up and have a good chat with them. so now the slow moving time is like... it's practically crawling.

now all i hope is to not let this affect my NS life too much la. it's pretty big of a worry for me, cos if i miss so many major events that ill have to make up, then it'll probably eat into my already super duper short block leave (which i totally dont want to), and im as good as never having any block leave at all. but more crucially, hopefully i wont be stuck in this sickly condition forever. i really want to get better. seriously. you have no idea how you feel like this zombie where you waddle from place to place cos u cant exactly hurry if not you'll feel pain at the calves, and the bloatedness in the stomach is worsening the effect. and at night you probably cant rest well cos of the tiny pins and needles in your head, and on top of that a nudging pain in ur backbone not allowing you to lie flat. (and these are all already out of the context, considering that the main problem elapsing from my illness is the numerous bruises all over my body).