wow how time flies. i didn't even expect my blog to be kept in cold storage for close to a month. but though it may seem fast to me this way, the month itself didn't exactly pass by THAT slowly. nevertheless, i'm one month closer to end of the year, and that of cos means... o. r. d. lol.
the ord package has been quite depressing lol. totally took the ord mood out of me. having to hear abt the tons of things u need to do after u ord, makes ord seem so small in ur ns life after all. i still rmb those days in bmt, when all i did was to look forward to pop, and when the day finally arrived, u realised that 3 months has passed and there are 21 more to go. now is really similar, probably just worse. 2 years are going to pass, and there are 10 more to go. TEN CYCLES. ahhh sinking into depression liao.
life's getting a bit more low-key now during weekdays, albeit daily pt, vehicle maintainence, and ippt (urgh another one coming up this week). that's good, so i can spend more time on things that are important to me, and i've interest in, like learning jap and reading, even catching up with the rest of the platoon before the nov ppl all ord.
during weekends, other than the usual routine of driving lessons, it's quite a lot of going out, and spending hordes of money in the process. ok i may be exaggarating when i say i'm broke, until like penniless. but really, spending too much money, especially on food, which like goes into ur tummy then serve no other purpose liao. but even those stuff i buy like new berms, belt, bag, possibly shoes someday, also cost quite a bit. so all i need to do is probably to cut down on other expenses and try to console myself that this is all for a fresh start after ord. lol. even wensi agrees that it's a good excuse haha.
so being the spendthrift me, managed to get a weekend available at home, though quite boring, but at least i wasn't spending much. managed to get some stuff done, so thats good. but lots of stuff on-going, and some i haven't got to doing yet, so that'll prob take place next weekend ba. all these includes signing up for tutor-student matching sites,
louis vuitton handbags as well as sending emails back to hwachong and asking if they require relief teachers. dunno where else to approach le... seeing how hc is doing well in his job, and how hz has been going to scheduled interviews one after another from thu to sat, it really serves as a good source of motivation. i feel quite determined not to just rot at home after being inspired by them haha.
dunno what came over me, mebbe it's the fear from the prospect of RT if i don't pass ippt after i ord. suddenly went to dig out my old running gear. ok it sounds like pro or wad, but it's just old school t-shirts and bball shorts (uh nope i dont play, it's just for sports usage), as well as running socks and my mega old sports shoes which i prob last wore back in j2. went to workout a bit this weekend, seeing that i haven't many appointments and was rotting at home anyways. hopefully this short-term burst of motivation will last and i can keep it sustained so i wont balloon back to some obese guy after i ord. if not 6 mths after i ord i'll prob fail 2.4km running lol.
next month's going to be a sad month, with all the nov guys ord-ing and the platoon will literally be halved. also, that means a crazy load of guard duty befalling upon the ptp and bp guys. and i seriously mean crazy. got 4 duties coming up waiting for me, 2 of which wkends, and 3 of them are consecutive, simply just alternating every other day. i dunno how big an impact that's going to weigh on me loh. confirm damn shagged for the whole 2 weeks de loh. hopefully can get to apply some off so that at least i can relax a bit after that crazy period. hmm, really hope that the platoon can still stay in touch after all the nov ppl ord, and i can still see them often enough. quite glad to meet up with hongchuan rather frequently, though i know that it's mostly due to hz's credit. with hz gone too by mid nov, i wonder if i'll still get to see them much... but then again, people always say army buddies you make during ns time will remain as ur buddies even after ord. i hope that'll come true =)
with hopefully more tuition assignments coming up, trying to keep up with my slight pt routine, maintaining communication with my school regarding the relief teaching, having to look for jobs in case my relief teaching hopes fall through, and perhaps, if i regain my confidence after this year's utter failure, to reapply for overseas unis and scholarships, on top of catching up with friends and getting new stuff (while deluding myself that this is all for a fresh start after ord lol), and more driving (oh how can i ever forget that >.<), i am going to have quite a fulfilling 2 months prior to my ord. which is a promising start to my civilian life i hope. i'm all ready for it! so please let me ord soon lol. *prays fervently for that day to arrive*
was quite glad to see sam and ryan last sun. went to have hi-tea buffet at thomson plaza, courtesy of remi to celebrate auntie ivy's bdae. haha quite happy to meet up with all his family members again, though uncle stanley wasn't around as he was sick. though we didn't meet for that long, going to play arcade and watch a movie after that (hurt locker), which wasn't much conversation and communication, still i could feel how comfortable we were with each other, and that assured me that our friendship was still strong after all, just overly long hiatus in between meetups. the last time we met, i still remember, was in aug on the day of ahm! that's like 2 months ago liao. well anyway, we were talking abt going for a trip sometime soon, and i sincerely hope it will realise.
talking abt trips, my family trip has shrunk to a 4 day trip instead of the originally planned 7-8 days since dad had insufficient leave left. initially felt a little disappointed, but then got over it le. so what if we are not going to travel very far or very long, as long as the whole family goes together, i'm sure it'll be fun. and yeah, got over the fact that i can't go for the 6d trip. ok it's not REALLY 100% confirmed yet, since the trip now is only 4 days and if the timings are just, i may just be able to make it for both! lol that will be the best case scenario la, though i won't dare to think so optimistically. now all i can do is to wait for my bro, who is helping to decide and book the family trip, to finalise all the details so i know if it clashes still with the 6d trip. and of cos i have to factor in if i do want to go for a trip so soon after coming back from one la. well all these hopefully gets decided by this wkend or something, or my chances of going to the 6d thailand trip will just diminish by the day, considering that there's so limited time left and i can't even decide to book air tickets.
i just hope everything will work out!! ord smoothly with minimal ippts and guard duties, find relief teaching job smoothly, if not some other stable desk job, get tuition assignments smoothly, having driving lessons and pass tp smoothly, get to go for both trips smoothly, and get to go on holiday with ryan and sam smoothly. so many things to handle, so little time. and incredible amounts of luck and opportunities and cooperation before everything can go on nicely. life's not all smooth-sailing i know, and i'm of cos just idealising when i wish for everything to go on perfectly.
but one can dream, can't he? =)
strangely feeling this ray of hope. i seldom get so optimistic lol.
must be finally having the ord-mood.