hmm, haven't blogged for a while. a month flew by, dec 12 flew by, and yes, i'm now a civillian once more. missed my pink ic sia. looks in such pristine condition compared to my 11b lol. to think that 2 sundays ago, i was still standing at the sentry box, doing guard duty >.< ahh, let's not go into that. well actually thanks to all the offs i've chalked up, i've been leading a rather civillian-y life, so to be truthful, i don't really find ord such a big deal. ok ppl who haven't ord are probably going to kill me for this, but ppl who have already ord-ed will probably agree with me. it's just moving on into the next phase of life, civillian-wise into the workforce and facing all the stress and workloads, or into uni life with lots of academic stuff to catch up and stress from exams and projects. oh let's try to put it in the military sense, i've finally finished with my two years, only to await 10 more years of reservist, ippts and RTs (omigosh), mobs etcetc. and the obligation to inform someone whenever i go overseas isn't exactly something that exudes freedom and release from ns right? okok i shan't go into that lol. chanel handbags still a fact is a fact, i'll prob never, or not going to step into keat hong camp for a long long time.. KUDOS to all mortar plt buddies who have gone thru the 1 yr 8-9mths with me. i had a great time having u all around =) thanks a lot for everything, that made my ns life less miserable. thinking abt this, i feel better already lol. though it's probably momentary bliss. life after ns is rather mapped out now, though with loads of uncertainties along the way. uh i'll probably stay in sg for uni le, considering that no scholarship providers want to offer me anything (so sad), so overseas is out of the question. going ahead with a ddp, hoping the workload wont kill me or something. will strive to work hard la i guess, but i really dont wish to have a no-life kind of uni life. that'll be damn sad, considering this is probably the last time i'm studying full-time before stepping into the workforce and leading an ultra mundane life from then onwards. at least lemme enjoy my last 4-5 years having some sort of fun and enjoyment before all the seriousness and maturity steps in yeah? work-wise, managed to get an internship with moe, and better still, going back to hwachong to intern haha. i think it's really nice of them to accept me as an intern, and back to my alma mater, so for that i'm really glad. although it's not exactly well-paying, considering i'll only get 7 wks worth of pay, subject to cpf contributions, and me being assigned to teach j1 chem (they are going to be like 3 yrs younger only >.<), i'm thinking it'll be a gd experience la, and i'll probably learn quite a lot from it, so i don't mind the little amt of pay that much. as long as there's a stable income, and my bank acc doesn't start decreasing at an alarming rate, or i end up seeing a big fat 0.00, i should be fine. =) going to be quite free till end jan, thinking of any last min or mega short term jobs to do in the 1+ mth i have. hopefully everything works out! if not, i'll just nuaaaaaa and do stuff which i've always wanted to ba, before the busy jc school term engulfs me lol. shall hope for more cookouts/baking sessions with justin, or basic piano lessons from dunjie (i wanna learn dango dango dango!) =) not forgetting the poor jap book that i've neglected for probably a month or so >.< (guilty guilty). ok la, i have to cut this short cos i meant to wake up early to blog but i overslept >.< in a while's time, heading to the airport liao. flying to vietnam! the land of pho (lol i feel so noob cos i dunno anything significant abt vietnam) back on fri, shall blog again and update abt it! =) my first holiday with ALL my family members since i dunno when liao. so quite looking forward to it. it's been a long time since it's all 5 of us haha. shall ask my bro and sis to take loads of photos to upload when i come back! lol.

hmm im such a weird person, wonder if i'm optimistic or pessimistic. sometimes i confuse myself. seriously.

ok till then!